lost

i feel like i've lost a very important part of me.. body without soul as chloe said. she said on sat, i was like a body without soul. which i feel is true. and she was so sweet, insist on taking me go lumut and teluk batik to cheer me up. love u girl.

it was short, but i dunno why the impact is so hard. but i cannot loose focus, i MUST FOCUS ON MY EXAM, MY JOB, MY TARGET, MY FIGURES!! I WONT LOOSE TO MY OWN MIND. I MUST BE POSITIVE. IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.

nobody knows...if only....

nobody knows how i am feeling now.

nobody knows what i am going through now.

nobody knows the pain..

nobody knows wat am i capable of doing..

nobody knows what i wanna say or do or tell..

nobody knows but me....

if only you would......

if only you knew.....

if only we gave each other a chance....

if only we could.....

if only things were as easy as.....

"One day when she's done trying and you are done having "fun"... You will wake up and realize that things could have been different. You've both matured and grown up now and see things differently. It will be on that day that you will wake up and realize just how much you really care about her and that she was the one. But when that day comes... she'll be waking up next to the guy that already knew."

and i found it from cc's blog.. and i wanna cry now, cz it's what i am going thru now. sigh.

sigh

feeling down. going thru another spell. just when i believed in walking again, you made me fall, and now i dunno if i can ever walk again!i believed in "myself", you made me believe in " myself". but you let me down. you pushed me down, and now i cant stand. i really thought i could walk again. you made me believe in it. but i guess, my instincts all this while before this was right. all of u are just the same!!!

meanwhile, i am listening to zoe. shes fantastic.;) i love her. most of all i love the ppl who bought it for me. pneah and Chris:)

i am so angry, sad dissapointed. and i am so blinking tired, and i got so much to study. and read up.

i will prove to you i can do it. i show all of u i cant be messed with. i'm a strong girl.

going to sleep soon. bye

p/s: ade113 is officially mine:) shes gorgeous. she's blue silver.:) and super smooth. and tinted, awwww. love you pa:)

omg

i am so tired. !!!!!preparing for road show, traveling here and there, trying to promote one lady( cz that the only thing i have).. for now.. being rejected!!!tired physically mentally emotionally..

got my name tag. they address me as OM Soo. wtf?ppl gonna call me miss soo. sheesh!

ANYWAY I'M TIRED. really am. promise to update more detail soon k?i need to go down, dinner then read up, then sleep. so bye!

better-boyzone

Our love has changed
It's not the same
And the only way to say it
Is say it..it's better

I can't conceal
This way i feel
For all the times we spend together
Forever just gets better

See what i'm try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
With you here it's better

I stand by you
If you stand by me
I think it's time that i reveal it
Cause i believe it
It's better

See what i'm try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
If you're here it's better

Ooh the more i talk to you
I fall in love with everything you do

Oooh..

See what i'm try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
With you here it's better

Our love has changed
It's not the same
And the only way to say it
Is say it..it's better.


p/s: the song of the week, month, day. i dunno. so so nice:DDDD

retail therapy

i bought 2 pairs of shoes in less then half an hour:P:P;P;;P;Pws so upset i fialedc that bloody ceili. went to pavilion, while waiting for adrian finish work, one from lewre and another from nose.very pretty:D. pics later too k?

p/s: i just forgot i havent ironed my baju for tomorrow. no i dun even know wat to wear. got to go. byeee!!!!

back after training and graduation dinner. tomorrow is monday. tomorrow is work. tomorrow stress begins. or would i say, the life of a bse begins tomorrow. though i fialed my ceili. farking hard ok?????but i can introduce products to customers dy. so yeah. then chloe calls me just now, asking me to draft memo for customers inviting them to our road show. so tomorrow is going to be extra extra busy, and tiring, and driving back daily for this whole week. sigh. good news is: ADE113 is ready. i mean otmorro i stil ldrive camry, but maybe wed or thurs can drive my own car.woots. now its being tinted. yayyyyy!!!!!brand new!!!!bought air freshener dy. lalalalalalaal. cant wait to drive her. :)

i got so many pictures to upload, but i have no time. and i have few pics which i so wanna upload on fb/blog, but I CANT. so we shall wait for those pics when i can okay??will upload soon i promise. when i am fre-er.:D.

graduation dinner was great. held at mum's place damansara perdana. heheheheh. good food good drinks, good company. hahahaha. also, pics later k?

bdw, i cant tell anyone, but all i can say is i miss you so much. if only you knew.sigh. i miss you a lot.

oh, friday, met bee and malcom. went for durians, then bak ku teh. gilaaaaaa!!but it was so nice meeting bee. jut like good old times:D

p/s: thanx for picking me up:) from ittc, thanx for charger:) and thanx for sending me back:)all the way to d shire.(bee)

training was good:) met nice friends. miss u guys a lot. (simon, aaron, xin juan, chan, alice, mogu, angeline, angie) to some of u, i shall meet u during fastrac. the rest, we go tani k?(simon and aaron)yayyyyy..... oh, be careful of "cancel" okay?ahahahahahahahaha. (jokes apply to simon and aaron):Pwill update more on training. in detail.

bdw, cant wait for tuesday:D. why????because it's pay day. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!my first pay. bdw, tomorrow when i go back office, will get my name cards, name tag and rubber stamp. woots woots.hahahahahaha. so yeah.

so i shal lupdate later or tomorrow?wanan go read up lil bit bout osp again. then go to lala land. 6am tomorrow.bdw, jerrica and siew li made me beautiful cupcakes for my graduation. its beautiful. pics later too k?:)so thats my breakfast.yayyy!!. so see u when i see you.

to you, i miss you a lot. i know you wont be reading this, but i do. so yeah!!!!

done!

i've graduated from UM. with a degree in performing arts majoring in drama. one of the happiest moments in my life. and so touched, and feel like crying. but i dunno how to decribe it, but it was a great feeling:Di am gonna leave the pics to talk. cz am tired. :)anyway, congrats to all my friends who graduated this year:) to ee von, cheng choo, chee wei, cat, jian, amy, yi jing, mei leng, we made it:) congrats to all of u. love you guys:D..





al lthe peple i love the most:D






best friends:)






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beautiful flowers from mama, papa, che, chris, and popo:)

so that was my graduation. going to take more next sat. with friends and coursermates:D

graduation

I'm graduating tomorrow:). too excited to blog, so will blog once all is over k?and training is good so far:)update later yeah?:):)yayyyyyyyy..

back for the weekend

i'm back, and leaving for kl tomorrow. act Monday, but going to visit aunt in UMMC. so daddy all going down, then Monday will go to bangi. for 2 weeks. will miss my spamming buddies.haahahahahha. but i need this training cz i am too bored @work. i do nothing other then spam and fill up forms for customers. i cant do anything cz i got no licence, and no training. so yeah!!all i do is spam spam spam!!and fill up all their inboxes.ahahahahaha. sorry guys. well it'll be a spam-free week(s).hehehe at least from my side. see u guys on 24th yeah.hahahahahahahaha. so yeah.. then erm, knitting is long, but still got 2 more yarns. gotta finish it asap!:P. pce and ceili on 19th august. i haven't finished studying.sigh!hopefully will be ok. then convocation is on 13th august. which is next Thursday, or wait, this Thursday. woots.haahhaahah so fast, 3 years and i'm graduating.hehehehe.

then, wat else? din buy shoes. din have any nice ones. so will jut wear my black heels. then wat else?this 2 weeks gotta meet up friends. then prob august 15th going clubbing with yi jing and kok hou.yayyyy!!!go zouk zouk zouk!!!yayyy!!or maybe poppy garden or quatro la. depends. but going la.yayy!!!then in this 2 weeks must meet up some friends. hope to meet bee and the spamming buddies too.:P..

cant wait to get my first salary:D:D and credit card. yayyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!wat is the first thing i should swipe first?hmmm. let me see?handbag?crocs? Elizabeth Arden's pretty?or ck's euphoria blossom?mac desktop?hmmmmmm.....or petrol?wtffff?hahaahahahahahaha... also cant wait to get my name cards, and rubber stamp and my name tag. now i feel so useless. i have nothing.:P. hopefully when i come back will get everything. *fingers crossed*

bdw, i miss my baby. dunno when shes coming back. now am driving daddy's Camry to work, and it's so much pressure. and its so big. so hard to park, and dam pressure lo. waiting for ade113 to come back. quick quick. hopefully after training it'll be back:Dmiss you baby!!!!!

anyway, gonna catch 40 wings, then after this go collect bee and gar wonn's cd. sent it to burn. gave bee's copy to madam the other day. so in case i meet them next week or the week after next, will pass it to em. gar wonn said he wanan watch too.hahaahaha. gedik la melihat diri aku kat pentas.ahhaahahah.anyway so i'l maybe update later. but for now, good night:)

graduating:)

was on leave today. went to kl super duper early. to get my robes.all done, photo package done, hutang settle, everything done. so now i just got to graduate.ahahahahaha. but my sis said my head too small. wear the mokhtar look very weird. :(. hmmm. anyways, i havent bought shoes. maybe tommorrow or friday during my lunch break.:P tom leaving fro manjung at 7am. then friday am back, then monday off to bangi for 2 weeks.hehehehe. anyways, i'm gonna buy dinner, continue studying and knit a bit. so catch up on friday or maybe sat k?bye bye.