Monday 29 June 2009

oh i forgot

i forgot to add this. just now during sasti class, while sir was talking to the boys, i saw this silver saga stop behind my car. was thinking who is this. and when he got down of the car, omg, i couldn't stop grinning, it was kee yong chen. omgg!!!!i haven't seen him for ages, and he was so shocked to see me too. he was grinning and smiling. ok, he walked in, he looks the same, but i must say, his communication has improved tremendously!!he was so happy to see me, and i was too. ok, there wasn't anything between us ok?it was just a small kids crush back then. he liked me. and he came, talk to me and yau, then he said this, when i see u, i think back of the memories. in Cameron 2000. omg. and he said "i remember that trip because of smth." and before he finished i said the bracelet.:D yeah, he gave me a silver bracelet. erm, those spring kind. it was in fashion back then. omg!then we both started smiling. and talking, and of course ,the exchanging of numbers and msn and face book addresses:D. nothing la. just its really nice to meet your old friends. so this was a happy thing:)

then, also forgot to add how annoying the girls were. oh, bunch of know-it-alls. irritating smarty pants. no your not Hermione Granger ok?cz Hermione has brains. not just empty vessels. you? you girls are empty.

i had something urgent to say, but i forgot. thanx to satellite a80. sigh!when i remember i shall immediately put it up. ok so good bye and good night!

Sunday 28 June 2009

i wish!

i wish i never went there!!if i went elsewhere, everything would be the same as before.and i won't be feeling this now!!!i really wish i din go there!sigh!it was my idea. my friend wasn't keen, but i said i felt like eating, and we went there.sigh!how i wished life could be simple and we don't have to worry bout all this crap! i really regret!!!!!!!if only i can turn back time!!!!!

adelle tengah emo!

ok, still in bad mood!!!but I'm calmer now!i am not going to elaborate why i was so blinking pissed just now. it was bottled up anger and frustration. well, I'm like that. when smth happens, i keep quiet, bottle it bottle it then suddenly when cannot bottle anymore i explode!. yeah i know, dangerous!but I'm like that. so i exploded today!!!!!i feel better now!but there are the little pieces of broken glass inside. actually not little, big pieces of glass. it will always be there until somebody cleans it up. till then, it will be there!!poking me, and cutting me!but i've stopped the bleeding!but i haven't cleaned the wound. the wound is open. let time heal it!and just let it be!

on the brighter side, i got an interview with *******. this Wednesday. of course accept and going:D. my heart stopped beating for half a second, cz i was too shocked to get an email. i really din expect it now, looking at the economy!. and everyone said i might be jobless for at least 6 months. so i was already planning to work in Gibb till November, then December lepak, go fitness camp, buy huge big big Christmas tree, decorate the house like santa's village, knit more stuff, and if still not working, save up more for krabi in January. ok maybe i still can do it, cz it's only an interview!. i might not even get it.right??so yeah, jut gonna give my best best shot. :D

on another sad side, this year is a very bad year. too many deaths, to many break ups. i cant imagine my ears when i hear it. too many!!!and so unexpected!!!to those of my friends who went thru a death of a loved one, I'm sorry and i feel you. cz i lost my grandpa this year too. and for my friends who had a break up this year too, I'm really sorry, i feel u too, but mine was in Dec la.. but i may not be in same situation, but i hope all of u are ok!stand up and be strong k? to my close friends, if u need someone to listen, I'm here. i might not pick up as soon as u call cz my phone is always on silent:p but I'll call u back later.:)and i've got plenty of hugs to give:D. and maybe at times, i dun really give good advice. I'm sorry if i was bit blunt and straight when you told me. but i dun have any intentions. i seriously was worried and cared for you. to one of my close friends, stay strong buddy!!i hope you'll be ok!hope to see u in my convo and Medan!yohooo!ok, i shouldn't say anything bout Medan first, cz i might be working. but yeah,:)and to another friend, you deserve better!your better off without her.!and to my dear chooi yin, stay strong k?:)we all sayang you. *hugs*

so i shall update soon, when i am feeling much better. and when i can actually really literally think of bright yellow flowers, rainbows and sunny days!!!
i feel so depressed, hurt, confused, angry, made use of!!no one appreciates me! i need to let it all out, but i cant, cz i have no place to let it all out. but when it's time to let it out, i bite my tongue and pull my finger back, cz i dun feel like talking bout it. i see it every day, i hear it every day. and i can't do anything!!!it hurts to hear it, cz i am in no position to say or do anything!!!!

i discovered a lot of things, which made me think back of some rotten memories. and made me think are all of them like that? i think the answer is yes. and I'll never understand them. i've been hurt so badly, that i don't wanna go thru it again!!!

what am i suppose to do?i wish i could run!!!run forever and dun come back, dun look back. just run!!!!or sleep and never wake up. i'm so tired of hearing this, listening to this, seeing this. feeling this!i just wanna cryyyyy!! but crying wont help either. so wat should i do?

Tuesday 23 June 2009

I've been so lazy to blog, that i dunno where to to start!so many things have happened!i discovered a lot of things, i realized a lot of things. but wat has passed i shall not say!just let it be!so for today:OMGGGGG, MY WHOLE BODY IS SO FREAKING PAINFUL!I WENT FOR TRAINING ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!CAN U IMAGINE, MORE THEN 30 SPLITS. 180 DEGREES SPLIT, WITH MADAM AT THE BACK OF US, FORCING US TO SPLIT. IT'S GOOD. BUT I HAVEN'T TRAINED FOR AGES, AND SUDDENLY, BANG!!!!!GAHHH!!!!MOVE FORWARD SPLIT, MOVE FORWARD SPLIT. 3 SETS. BUT IT FELT GOOD. THEN WE HAD 1 MINUTE NON-STOP SHUTTLE RUN, THEN KNEE RACES, THEN SINGLE KNEE RACE, THEN FULL SQUAT, HALF SQUAT. HMMM WAT ELSE R?OK, THAT WAS ENOUGH TO KILL US. THEN PARTNER SKILL. ATTACK TURNING KICK, COUNTER, SLIDE BACK TURNING KICK, THEN TURNING KICK, BACK THRUST, CHOPPING KICK, TURNING KICK. FEW SETS. THEN FREE SPARING!!!!WAHHH, SO LONG I DIN SPA. IT FELT GOOD!!!ACTUALLY TRAINED TILL FELT LIKE PUKING. BLUEKKK!!HAHAHA. OK DIN PUKE LA. JUST FELT ONLY!.but now, my body is so painful, i wished my house was single-storey.cz walking down is HELLLLLL!!!omg!anyway, that was on Sunday. then i start work on wed. part time, in Gibb again!. well, for the experience. cz experience in a legal firm will be very very useful and makes me more versatile!and marketable. so yeah. BUT MY STRESS BEGINS. LITERALLY. STRESSFUL JOB!!!sigh!but i wanna learn( so Adelle, shut up and work) meanwhile, i will still keep applying for jobs. and Audrey said there's no obligations. i get an interview, i go!no strings attached!:). so yeah!

then, chris's muffler almost done. in my last yarn. have to finish it by tonight or tomorrow.gahhh!!!i think can la:)quite the long dy:):)dah siap nanti i ambil gambar k?

so here are some random pics. oh bdw, i baked pineapple tarts the other day. u know first day i made the dough, tak jadi!and THE SAME SAME PROBLEM!I WAS ABOUT TO THROW THE DOUGH AWAY WHEN MY SAVIOR, ANNE SOO CAME TO MY RESCUE!:) she helped me redo it, and voila. it turned out.jam is delicious!gonna do it again cz got extra dough.:):):)






snoopy towel( courtesy of restorer oil, boo boo #4, potato wedges from steak factory.






tarts, buffalo wings with cajun source





p/s: why is your display pic our name combined?????????that was ages ago. what are you trying to tell me?excuse me?????????did i NOT MAKE IT CLEAR THAT IT'S OVER?????AND WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE?so DON'T CLICK ME, AND ASK ME HOW I AM DOING, OR WHERE I AM STUDYING OR WHERE AM I NOW. CHANGE YOUR PROFILE PICTURE, PUT YOUR MACHO HANDSOME FACE, AND NOT THE ZIPPO LIGHTER.AND MOVE ON!!!!!!!

hello

hello!!!!!HELLO!!!!!HELLO!!!!!!!BONJOUR!!!ALO!!

Monday 15 June 2009

forgot to change the setting. so lame!all my captions lari dy.ishhhhhhh!!!!

Saturday 13 June 2009

summary

ok, i know i haven't been updating since the big curry puff. as usual, a lot of things happened. so I'm just gonna put up a summary and loads of pics k?after each pic i will elaborate a lil. too lazy. cz i got to knit now!while blogging!!!so yeah. before pics, ok, i applied for loads of jobs,BUT NO ONE HAS CALLED ME. at the same time, i am planning to go for holidays etc, and enjoy, cz once i start working i can't do this, but at the same time i also wanna start working, cz i duwan to be rusty. but i dun think I'll be rusty. cz i will be knitting and doing stuff. and not just blogging and facebooking:P:P:P.. so ok here goes:







ok, pre ti tournament. labels.






sir's dogs:)shaggy and jenny







that was one random guy in mcds. his hair. omggg!!!!then the others is a big big boo boo i made in Chris muffler. sorry Chris!!!!i din even realize i made it.:(






mik mikkkkk!!:D

then old town white coffee opened in ti. yohoo!!a new hang out place!!!i went there 4 days in a row, and twice on the last day. crazyy!!so the first day i went with mummy and aunty rani.:)







that was curry mee, nasi lemak, tuna toast, old town and ice blended hazelnut:P







that was a gift from my lil brother, dam obscene i know!hahaha. ran out of socks, had to use it:p then the smile one is a laminated table mat, i found in giant. and found the words cool.hehehe. ok iwasnt a sucker to buy it. but it was funny. and it had little fingers with face:p:P:P. then camwhore, and after jogging face:P













continue tomorrow. i dam lazy to blog now!i'm tired!(both mentally and physically). so bye bye!