dinner

hey peeps, so i cooked dinner today. all my work. from cooking rice, to cutting everything, to marinating. but of course mummy was next to me. monitoring how much salt to put in etc. but yeah. packed some for ky as he's still tagging..tasted good:)







heheheh.
so that was dinner.. i finished watching dh.dammm nice:). now gonna start on PP.

so i am gonna go watch. while waiting for ky to call me.. sleep early.got church tomorrow.. lol. babay!:D

:)

yesterday when ky came to find me, he handed me a box. it WAS a manicure set., simpel one got mirror. so cuteeee. he got it as door gift from the suture class. yeah it's free, but he thought of giving it to me:).and i cant help smiling even though i have one, but this one got mirror and i always said wanan put one nail cutter in my car. because i always forget to cut my toe nail and when i weaR peep toe, it looks ugly. but now i can squeeze it inside dashboard or compartment where i put lgihter and keys:). weeee... and mine is green. though the box is blue.,weeeee. thank you baby:). me love you...














sooo cute:)

the imperfect me

I've got 10 minutes to blog. go!

have you ever felt like u will never make someone happy in Ur life??

have you ever felt like instead of making someone feel better, u make them feel worse?

the problem is me. not anyone else. my expectations are too high. when it doesn't happen,i get upset. i keep questioning myself... and the problem is me! and i cant change it. and I'll never be good enuf for you. and i will never make u happy. to know that.. it hurts even more...

because i am sensitive, hot-tempered, not rational, impatient, lazy, playful. lame, not serious, procrastinate, think too much perhaps. all this just doesn't make me an asset to you.

everyone has their limit. and i might just drive u away from me!

i am feeling very sad now. i just feel so guilty and angry with myself. because i cant be there for you, cant comfort u, cant advice you. cant discuss things with you. because I'm stupid and i dun understand what Ur talking about. feel like this bimbo. sigh.

when i heard those things, it really pricked me. so I've decided to just listen more and not give my opinion or ask anything.. or say anything. because it doesn't really matter anyways. its just my 2 cents opinion. who am i anyway?just the girl next door who works in a bank selling insurance. so nobody needs her opinions.

anyways i had a massive attack of diarrhea yesterday.. made my ass burn as usual, so i was on MC today. decided to come back to ti, then tomorrow going back to work(that's why i only have 10 minutes to blog) and today whole day been having headache. before this only right temple. today was whole head, AND MY CHEEK BONES. WHY CHEEK BONES?I DUN SEE THE CONNECTION. THOUGH MOM SAYS ITS POSSIBLE. BUT OH WELL I NEVER FELT IT. SO JUST THOUGHT IT'S WEIRD.

tomorrow got house warming. that's why am coming back on sat only. :(.

the main reason i really wanna go not because i paid rm48 for the gift and i wanna go eat, but because joyce's husband would be there. and it's so hard to meet him. though i know there are no promises, but at least i finally get to talk to him. so yeah.

i hate my hair. it's so uncontrollable. i really wanna perm my hair. i think at my length, it'll be dam nice.. but, sigh. the big but... i don't want to waste money. it's so expensive. rm200 plus. cant afford it.. need to save money. (i have them one. its not so sad case ok) its just i gotta save up for other stuff. like chiang mai, Christmas, sales clinic driving down, knitting.. and of course saving for house..later.lol. so yeah.meanwhile gotta stick with this hair of mine. with the roots growing black, and red that looks brown, and dancing hair.

and i noticed without make up, I LOOK LIKE CRAP. MY FACE, MY SKIN. WHAT IS WRONG?I NEED TO GO FOR FACIAL. NO I AM SERIOUS. WHEN REMOVE MY MAKE UP, I LOOK SO SCARY. SIGH. IS WORK THAT BAD?

ANYWAY I HAVE exceeded my 10 minutes. SHIT I Am gonna feel like crap again tomorrow because i wont have enough sleep. sigh. ok la.. if i am in mood will blog tomorrow k

happy Friday.

with love,
ALIEN

sigh

din turn out like i expected. lady measured wrongly. she better fix it and make it look nice. I DONT CARE. and also the others. fix the hook/button hole. i dun care. i want it nicely done. since u thought me wrong things. you fix it.

wrap up

so it's the end of July. and yes, happy 1 year;). to me...last year, 27th July 2009, i stepped into public bank seri manjung for the very first time. and look, I've survived 1 year.woooots. how many ppl even survive 6 months?or less???but i survived 1 year.. and the turn over for this job is so blinking high. but i made it.wohooo..let's see how long more i can go;)

i miss ky... he's tagging in o and g..urghhh..

then i closed 1 case today and 1 yesterday. existing customer and reference. yayyy. so it makes it 5 this month. yeah i dun care. i din hit my target. but let's look forward:D

ky agreed to do a simple health check for our branch weekend roadshow. the theme is "health is wealth". and suggested activities were health checks/talks. and panel dr duwan do. they not free. yeah prob if we pay them they'd be free. but obviously we r not. so they r not free. so my darling bf agreed;)thank you sayang.. he even said he might give a talk... awwww... he asked me whats his treat. lol. i promised him a body massage. wahahahahahha. (i cant massage for nuts, but i'll try);P:p:P:P

i finally finished knitting my first hand phone pouch, and managed to learn how to crochet the edges, but hmmm, it doesn't look nice:(. so i am going to knit 2 more, and on Thurs( next Thurs) i will just go down, ask them to help me amend and fix the button hole/button/string) since they r the experts. am so tired of doing imperfect ones. so disappointing:(;( sobs. never mind, see what they can do lo.meanwhile i need those measurements:D.

stil lthinking what should i do next?hmmmm...oh well. anyways gotta go pick up aunty from kindy. catch up soon k?bdw how do i look with long curly hair?

cheapskates

i am amazed with how some small town people can behave.. honestly...for a 70 cents kilometrico pen??




they pulll break it.. and STEAL THE PEN.cheapskatesssss.my gooooodnessssssss......we all thought by using this the pens wont go missing..but it did..what is wrong ??????

awwww:)

so my predator cooked me dinner tonight.. and baked me a cake. ok he din bake it for me.. but he baked it. and surprised me. so i assume it was for me. it was simple. fried chicken and soup and vege. (he cooked the chicken only).hahaah ans baked delicious blueberry cheese cake. yummy. and he made it a point to plan and do this, and surprised me:).refused to let me know what he was doing. awww. i love you baby:).as usual pictures later.

something's been bugging me. involving people i love very dearly. i just hope things get better. and what ever your decision is, you have us and God.. we will not question you. because we want you to be happy. and we will support you..

tomorrow( or later actually) i will be sparring after 8 years. can u imagine. 2002. and now is 2010... wow.. . i am really nervous. and scared.

tomorrow( or later) Ky starts pussy department. tagging for 2 weeks and pussys for 4 months. guess its 2 weeks of less talking:(... felt bit sad just now cz we din talk much despite being in the same house and watching series. we talk more when we're away. hm mm. maybe he's tired.

tomorrow( or later) is gonna be a hectic day. whole day in sasti. then dinner at sir's place. then half way dinner meeting Steven and gang for steamboat. then take them go eat ccf. and then later only either go find Ky or just talk to him on phone. Sunday am not free to go tournament. smth popped up. looking forward to tomorrow ( or later) because catch up with old buddies. as usual:)..

okaY.sleeping time. good night. wish me luck. and to everyone out there, have a good weekend.

xoxo,
alien

i am back

greetings.... i am back. blogging with my new desktop. laptop is back. still critical but oh well, bb is back too. omgggggg. i missed this..\

then, fast forward, its been the same. went to Cameron. had a good trip with friends, had 2 roadshows, oh i do not want to talk bout it.

then oh Spain won the world cup which u prob knew. i was suppose to watch with Ky, but i was sleeping on his lap, only when he jumped up, i woke up and went back to sleep again. ahahahahha. but oh well, talking bout world cup, wanted to ask if u all knew bout the octopus?i did not know he was a real octopus and his name was paul. gosh. so funny when daddy told us. anyway way to go paul:D. talking of octopus, 1 octopus is called octopus right?if more then 2 octopus?what do u call em?octopusses?octopussys?(just joking). did u know its called octopi?(pronounced octo-pai).lololololol. so while waiting for sister's bus to arrive just now, i asked her what other word we can use. so i asked her, how bout kunjus?and she laughed and said... cannn ,kunji(pronounced kun-jai).hahaahahah. ok inside joke. prob wont know wat kunju means. its ok:P.

ok catch up later at night. greys is calling me :)