snookums

"lol. i love you infinity and beyond..muacks...times infinity. snookums have good day tomorrow ya?;)"

"sayang is that my new name?snookums:P"

"lol. yeah. your new name to match kunju:). you like?"

"but what is snookums?ahhahahahahaha.. kunju and snookums.ahahahahaahahahha"

"i also dunno. but it sounds nice right?"

"it sounds damm farnie. ok then i will be snookums and u be my kunju. *snookums and kunju sitting on a tree, k.i.s.s.i.n.g*


rofl rofl rofl rofl

the mixed me

i was just thinking back, few days ago and i am still. in my entire life, i have never felt so happy before. in terms of my relationship and personal life. as i am typing this, i am touching wood, because i do believe when u say smth it turns out opposite. and i am not meaning to jinx this`relationship, but i am just telling. all my relationships i have been in, i have never been happier then now... and i thank God for showing us the way:). in my family, i have a great family who is so supportive and loving. my life is rich with love.

at the same time, i have never been so depressed and frustrated in my entire life. my job, my career. so what i got an increment? my targets r so high, i am stressed every day. even when i am on leave i get calls and msgs from colleagues and bosses. what the hell la? do you think i am not worried?i am worried hell. you people dont think so right? cz i am so happy and lepak... my customers don't come back. u think i am not worried?u think i am enjoying my life here?well it does but i am not. i am worried. every day i wake up thinking of who is going to ffk me. will i get good prospects. every single day. even when i am on leave. Saturdays and Sundays are no difference. i wake up, and think, "oh today is Saturday, tomorrow is Sunday, Monday dunno got customers or not". how sucky is that?but thats going on every single day. and i am suppose to pretend i am all happy and cheerful.

i am so depressed. but at same time i am happy. yin and yang. hahaha. anyways i need some light. i reallllly do!

2 weekends passed so fast. had a great time with komium and met up with ev and cc. pics later as usual k?komium's on call tomorrow. saturday going sekinchan for leong and aiti's wedding. talking of weddings, wow everyone is getting married;). to begin with, congrats to leong and ai ti;), then comes shirley's wedding. then ding and clair. so who's going to tie the knot next?:). everyone's getting married so for the fun of it, i just asked komium. hahaha. not asking him to get married to me, but askign him what he wants for our wedding. and he;s ok with having a quartet, and peach will be the theme and flowers is sunflowers, hmm what `else? err, church wedding of course. full service:). sis will be bridesmaid if i marry first:) anyways enough of day dreaming. tomorrow is back to work. sigh. all i got to do is keep praying....so ok pick up aunty and buy dinner. so bye bye.

p/s: we bought a calvin and hobbes mag. and komium was so excited he said he's going to make a rubber stamp saying, "property of komium and kusu". (which he already made) hahahahahahaha. and he said we will stamp it on our baby's ass. hahahahahaha that got me laughing off the chair. lol.

ok bye for real.

kusu

us and sunset and us:)

pangkor island with komium

did i tell u we were goign to pangkor last weekend?in case i did not, we went to pangkor.;) nice trip, cz nice company. had a great weekend:). beach is actually cleaner then langkawi lo. din do much shopping.( no one goes to pangkor to shop) food is nth to shout about, place we stayed also nth to shout about. oh the 1 thing to shout about, LIM KUAN YEW. HEHEHEHEHE.

anyways, the blog i realized is a better place to put up all the pics. so check it ut and enjoy. there'll be captions below. but go along with me if the caption doesnt match.heheheheheehhe.







breakfast:)in ti..before leaving






on the way to pangkor.

tuesday

boo! i am in sitiawan:). finally staying. but hor onyl for one night. cz tomorrow komium ask me go back eat mooncake under the moonlight with him and family. so ok:).

the connection here is so good hor, but hor i forgot to transfer the pics from pangkor into pendrive. sigh. and also the random ones from emma. so do wat leh hor?blog lo:D

had a longggg lunch with hew. washed brains kau kau. but at least i know wat to do. i am so touched that there are so many people making an effort to help me, and all iam doing now is just complaining how stressed am i. i must stop and grow up.!

anyways what to do now?ey did u know they have wedding dash 3 and 4 now???i wannna play but all i can get is the trial version:(....

k. i wanna go download recipe for nestum prawns. i suddenly want to cook that. ta

kusu

holiday

today is a holiday. its hari malaysia:). i am appreciative that we live in malaysia. a country where we can do anythign we want. i know it's not a perfect place and there is a lot of politics going on, racism etc. but its nothing better then home.. we may think migrating overseas is the best decision. but no, u r wrong. malaysia or home is the best place. "tanah airku". hehehehehee. and i am proud to be a malaysian:). but most happy of all, it's a holiday.hehehehe. poor komium is on-call today.

anyways being a holiday, iwent to watsons, got loads of stuff. vanity case, sun block, mask, cucumber eye pads, shower foam, bottles, foto spray, hand soap, wet tissues. lol. i love watsons:D.

bdw, i got 2 wekeends with komium, this weekend we goign pangkor, "just the twoooooo of us" .hehehe . just go there chill, kayak, banaNA boat, drink perhaps, and chill:)then next weekend going kl. i got course on monday and tuesday. so he's on leave sat sunday. so we going, chil lwith his cousins, then with my sis and mav and cheng choo and ee von:). miss them badly.

anyways am wearign mask now. gonan watch harry potter and the half blood prince now:). see ya. happy holidays. its work for me tomorrow.urghhhh

love,
kusu

my other baby

i love it. every day i look at it i am falling in love with it more. but i love the person who got it for me most. i love you.

:)

think my chiangmai pics are everywhere on facebook:). and i am pretty sure those who follow me here follow me o nfb. so i decided to tell u all bout smth, which i did not put up on fb, but becauseee this is me blog, so i shall put it here. :)

see wat my baby bought me:)



isnt it beautiful?my seiko got blink blink.awwww... i love u sayang.thanx for the watch:). i love the watch, i love u:)

awwww

"i love you. you r not a bimbo. you r my smart boo boo".

awwwwwww*melts*

i don't know

i don't know where i am. i don't know what am i doing. i don't know how to do it. i don't know where to source for customers.

i am in a whole mess now.i haven't broke my egg for september. both osp and bic. i have another week to go for bic. no prospects, no sales:( i am so confused in everything, and i cant tell anyone also. because it's the same thing again and again. but how?

all i can do is hope and pray. which i have been doing. maybe the way i pray is not right. sigh. who do i turn to?

i feel so frustrated... i feel like a BIMBO. no i seriously do. i want to look beautiful, but i cant work:(
and i feel like guilty towards public bank. you know why, i just got an increment. oh wait, i should say, "yayyyy i got an increment" right? but i didn't. because i cant give them back what they want from me.. sigh. bdw i am happy that i got a rise. which i am not telling, but it's quite a good amount:).

anyways, sigh. i am so stressed i can cry anytime. i already broke down in front of ING ppl, then i have been breaking down countless times by myself.i broke down on the phone with sister when she asked me bout my job, and latest was in front of sayang. i cried so much, and that sweetheart insisted we go buy a drink from 7e:). it was nice cz we just sat in car, and drank shandy. lol. well i did feel better, but then again when i go back to work, STRESSSSSSS. sigh. this is the first time i am sighing so much. never sighed so much before. every word every sentence i say ends or begins with a sigh:( you think i want meh?now i wanna cry again:(.

anyways this blog is supposed to be bout chiangmai. bdw chiangmai was FANTABULOUS. the next blog will be chiangmai k?...goign to ky's house now.

selamat hari raya to all malaysians:). 1malaysia ma...LOL.

love:
baguette