messed up

so since i resigned, i have been enjoying life, waking up at 10 or 11, doing nth, just relaxing. but it's starting to worry me, why? cz i haven't got any offer at all for sure. all i get is empty promises. act it was very risky Wat i did. just leaving without getting any offer. and it's starting to worry me. when i wanted a job, or even a phone call for interview, i did not get it. i waited and waited and waited, but nth came in. then when i decide to resign and take a break, i get an offer, (i dunno if it's an offer). or lets just say an opportunity, and i agreed, so before confirming anything, i thought bout it properly, and threw in my letter of resignation. when i am waiting patiently again for a confirmation from this job which i want, i get calls from banks, offering me a post, and willing to negotiate with me. call me desperately until they even call my house phone when they cant get me on hp. to ask me to come for an interview right now. and when i told them day before i duwan sales, he said operation no place, but today he said we can discuss on putting u in operation and its a non sales post. but i turned it down!!!!!. all because i am waiting for the answer from smth i want.! i emailed him today, no reply, i what's apped him ,no reply. sigh. maybe i should give him the benefit of the doubt. as they did tell me they r super busy this week. but i cant stop but wonder if its just another empty promise. i am scared. i dunno whats my future. it's all so messed up, and i dun have a job now. i am jobless, no money, cashless..i really don't know what to do now!... everything is so foggy. i went to see him the other day., he seemed promising, but why so long to reply.. i should give him the benefit of the doubt, but aaarghhhhhh.. this is killing me!!!!!! Lord, please show me light, please show me the way!..

phew, on another side, just wondering how some can afford to go for so many holidays in such a short time. hmmm, and how they can have so many days leave. don't they save? i keep wondering. one holiday for me burns my pocket. what more a few in 2-3 months. and if ur going to some expensive holiday, wauuuuu. i wouldn't want to think of whats going to happen to my financial situation. but then again, it's not me, so why bother right? as long as i know, i don't do that, and i save, and my bf has a strong head on his shoulder, to know what is right and wrong, when to spend, how to save, i think that's most important. and prioritize.

ok back to my messy life, i am supposed to go to kl and start owrk in june. june 1st. thats like 1 week pus, but what if i dun get any offer now, and on 31st only they tell me to go kl, omgg???? i am scared that will happen. sigh. so worrying. i think i need to apply other jobs too. since i know i am goign to work in kl, i will just do it. apply other place.s if you cant give me an answer, too bad, bye. i already made a lot of mistakes, for instance, rejecting all the jobs which i got now. without even having any offer. so i cant afford to do it again. so tonight project is to type cover letters and prepare my resume and certs.

there was smth else i wanted to blog, but i kinda forgot. so when i do remember i will blog.

back to pvz survival.okthnxbai(ok i find this phase dam the farnie) me and sos r usign it often now. ahahahahaha. okthnxbai

boo

Camwhore time:d

If u can see the diff:p
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Location:Jalan Sultan Abdullah,Teluk Intan,Malaysia

27th july 2009-13th may 2011

so the day finally came, when i had to walk away, and never look back. i teared and cried, stoopid me.. why stoopid? because it's not worth my tears for those people. they din feel a thing, the only thing i think they would miss bout me is doing all the work, which they now have to do till there's a new replacement. they did a farewell, but not sincere. no one knew, the organizer did not tell anyone, everyone started going back, only a few of them were nice enough to ask everyone to stay. and when they did, it was so forced!!and they did not even say thanx for the SR cake i bought for em. shit holes!!!. anyways maybe i think i cried not cz of them, but maybe inside me, i missed my customers and i missed the comfort of living here. definitely not them!!!. but anyways i took pic with all of em, and it was a memoraBLE farewell, not cz of thme, but i had others that made it special. to start off, ky came down on monday, ok maybe a farewell and also to supposedly show me his new daughter, maple. and yes, he bought a mac book pro, and he insisted its our daughter. ahahaha but i told him not to, cz dangerous to leave in car, or might be dirty. so he came down, took him to villa:) ate nice seafood:) and camwhored./ahaha..







that was a vege, and tomyam curry lala, seaweed lai liu har and my bomb bomb:)






vietnamese style prawns, me and you:)

then went for lunch the next day with wong and joyce. two of them are gossip girls, hahahaha but i thin kthey were the one who sincerely liked me as a friend. :)




then that night went out for farewell dinner with serene and chiang;). one of my best buddies in pbb( serene is in eon now)went to eat my favourite red wine mee suah. delicious:D







oh thats me after wrk on tuesday:D. then thats red wine mee suah, only found in sitiawan and sarawak:), and famous tofu, 4 emperor vege, marmite chicken and oyster egg. the famous dishes in sitiawan:)

then serene made me a photoframe as a farewell gift. its from chloe and serene. memories of us in penang:)







my farewell gift, serene and me, chiang and me and 3 of us.

then thursday we had the farewell.






me:), chan and me, sia and me, joyce and me, datin and me:)







pizza, chicken wings, mr leong and me, the farewell gift they got me, which was act quite nice:)

chloe perfume.. and that aunty mureen and aunty jane. i stayed with aunty maureen and she tgook care of me like a mother woudl do. love u aunty:)





this was on friday, obviously.. quite sad to take this pic:(..

then right, the next pic which i am going to put up is a money plant which i grew on my table, which i thought might give me good luck, but i realized i never prospered since i put the plant there. it din give me prosperity:(


my ABM gave me farewell gift. smth she knows i will like and use. so sweet:). it was a necklace. those accessories kind. can be made into a long chain, or short chain, and a bracelet:)



then i had this customer who bought an osp from me in 2009, on Friday she called me to come out of bank,. she wanted to give me smth. she gave me a bag of mangoes from her dusun .farewell gift. so sweet:).

and my branch all signed a card for me;)



after this are all the pics with my satff and colleagues.







zamri, miss tan, miss he, khairul, kong







kak maz, hanrie, miss choong, miss ong, kak maimun:)







mr ong, miss ho, miss wan, encik azuri






mansor, dong, joyce, wong




so that was PBB seri manjung staff. i am sd i left the job for a greener pasture(i hope) but i am not sad to leave them. i din mean anything to them neither did they mean anything to me.

what lies ahead, i dunno, but all i know is i am not alone.