i am doubting myself... i wonder if i made the right choice on leavign a secure job for this. all for the passion???????? act iam doign the same thing now.. just selling different thing. i left my secure high paying job for a job that pays me so much less..(for the passion), i left a comfortable workign hour job for this( wakign u pat 6am, leavign office at 730pm) thinking of aviding jams, i left my high payign job for this( i need to be so careful with moeny, i need to worry so much bout petrol, where to eat, wat to eat thats cheap, i cant save moeny) i left my secure comfortable job for this( seeing less of my family and bf)... i left it all for this.. and now i am doubting if its worth it????? i left my secure 9-6 job with lots of staff benefits for this.... (with hardly any benefits)..why? cz of the passion. but is it really worth it?i should have lsitened to my folks when they advised me on it. i ran following my heart.. which i am happy cz i thought i wneeded to catch my dreams. but i dunno, looks liek my dreams wil lnever be caught by me.. and that's why i am worried. i know it's only 2 motnhs, but seems like what i have been promised is not being full filled. and i feel a ltitle cheated. but i just need to hang on first.
i survived in the bank for 1 year 10 months. i think i can survive this? and i can do it with god, my family and ky:)... i just need to trust Him more. i believe all this happens for a reason. there are 2 ways, 1) God will never let me fall, cz He will catch me or hold me. 2) if i fall, He will teach me how to fly. so no matter what, He is there for me!!!.:). here's a very meaningful poem for all you readers and for me to remember:
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.
This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
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Carolyn Carty, 1963
i am going back to ti today .sayang is on call:( but it's ok, i miss home, and i onyl wil lsee mummy and daddy tongiht, thye going "hapcai" for a weekend getaway. lol. (hadyai act) jsut like saying the way ppl sayit,, hapcai..) anwyays i am home alone, baby-sitting. haahahaa. my brothers and step-sisters, and one step-brother(mahli),hahaha isaac better behaveeeeee. lol ..
i have got lot of projects to do now, must finish my bag, then bookmarks for dear friends, laptop sleeve for sayang, some christmas goodies for my family:).. well let's see if i can finish it. *fingers crossed*
so what am i going to do now?oh bdw have you seen the doodolls car vrooom
???? omgggg it's so blinking cute. i saw it last weekend, and fell i nlove with it, but i wasnt allowed to buy it:(:(.. coem i show u..
that's charcola(which is mine) and then we have cupido, sunnish twin and reddish twin. they have cupipi too) but the white ones get dirty. omgg they r so cute. ishow u a pic of them in the car seat.
didnt i tell u it's so cute? and osft and plush??? i need to get it... i don't care. .ahahahahahaha. shoudl i get a pair?or should i get one? and shoudl i get 2 charcols? or one reddish twin one sunnish twin..??? aaarghh i wantttttttt:D.. *i am gettign it i dun care i am gettign it i dun care i am getting it i dun care*. ahahahaha. and hey its useful, i always get stiff neck while driving cz all the *&&^^$%##$%^*&^$ drivers in kl make me stressed, that i cant drive relaxingly, i have to sit up and becareful cz somewhere someone wil ljsut cut in. omggggg. so if i have this vrooom, i can adjust my rear mirrow and side mirrow so i can rest on my vrooom, and still see whose coming suddenyl or nect to me:P
ok whi l i dream of my vrooom, i wil lget back to "work" which is no work.hahahaha. happy Friday peeps. bubye now.
yours sincerely,
vrooom vrooom@meh meh
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