after 4 months of going for jazz classes, its finally over. i know it sounds like i hate it.i did enjoy it, CZ it was smth diff, and challenging CZ i have no dance background at all. nuts!!!me and ee Von were like the dumbest in the class, but luckily, ms revathi my jazz lecturer (who happens to be this super hot woman)really, shes hot, shes patient, shes a good teacher, and you know ,she just has the package!!!!if you readers know what i am talking bout. by the way, please don't mind my weird language and structure today, CZ i am very depressed now when i am blogging bout this. so yeah..
back to jazz, i am going ot miss jazz, miss the lecturer but think it will be better for us.
we had our finals on 17Th April 2008. i screwed up big time. i forgot my steps. i messed up, my partner also forgot, which made us look so far king stupid and one of the tutors laughed at us. felt so insulted. ee Von and cheng choo, think you know which tutor i am talking about. at that moment, and even till now, i felt so disappointed with myself. i know was going to mess up, but did not know i would mess u psi badly. i feel so embarrassed of myself. though i know we are not dance students, but still???i at times think ,for 4 months, i did not improve, honestly, i can't do one jazz movement really properly. how sad is that?and i know i am going to fail, or at least D. but no,i have no regrets taking jazz. i wanted to learn a dance subject, and i did, and it was a great experience. loads of fun though painful at times. (no all the time)but it was a great experience.
when i was on stage, i forgot my steps and when i walked back, i couldn't face anyone. and to be honest, i felt yesterday my tear glens were very loose. i normally don't cry easily and tear, but yesterday, i felt so disappointed with myself, when i was sitting down, i tearer, and ee vo saw, CZ when she was performing, she told me to relax. so malu!!!!!dunno if the dance students saw me tear. i realized i have gone soft!!!!i used to laugh at ee von and tzyy yun cz always cry, and look at me?honestly, i tear very easily now adays. for the slightest thing. yesterday was very emotional. even when at the end of class, ms revathi told the class to give a big hand to me and ee von CZ we had the courage to learn smth so alien to us, and we managed, with no dance background at all, i teared. i pretended to tie my shoelace hoping no one Will see, but i think kak nurul saw, and she like patted my back. i have no idea why i teared.
night i text ed ms revathi telling her thanks etc, and she replied this:
"your most welcome!its always a pleasure to see a non-dance student so keen to learn smth so alien. so keep dancing"
so sweet right?and yes, i went to the bathroom ,and cried. what is wrong with me?i cant control my tears. its just came out. so look who's the cry baby now?i feel disappointed with my self. but then again, it was a very good experience, and this had made me mor interested in dance, and if i have the time, i will learn another kind of dance!!!
to chee wei and cheng choo, thanks loads for always believing in us that we can do it. honestly, we wouldn be where we are if you both were not here for us. the times when you both will correct us when we did the loco motor movements after we did it. you both were very patient in teaching us and never looked down. to all the dance students, some of you were very sweet so thank you. those who were quite cocky, too bad for you, and i also don't know your names. but to the guys who helped us, the long hair dark guy, the guy always with atiff, both of u were very sweet. and helped me and ee Von a lot. thank you!!to chee wei and cheng choo, big hug for both of you!!
in conclusion, a big thank you to all who helped us get through this class. gonna miss it.the biggest thank you to ms revathi, for being so patient and understanding, and dedicated in teaching us, though we know nuts bout dance!!
I've got lots to tell, but am just not in the mood to tell everything. think ee Von has said most of it bout how we feel bout jazz.so yeah, got to get back to worry bout my things now. till then and goodbye to jazz again. (i sound like some one died)hahahahaha..purposely to sound more dramatic!!!!kakakakakakakakakkak=P
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