i dunno why!

why am i feeling like this? i shouldn't be!it's been 13 years. i SHOULDN'T be feeling this. but why am i?deep down, do i?but it's been 13 years. how can i?i cant, AND I WONT! but it keeps coming back to me!!every time!i dun feel good, but i can't help it!i dunno why it keeps coming back to me. was it that deep? was it? i dunno!!!is it just me?i think it's just me! but i dunno what to do, what to react, what to feel!and I'm just going to let it be!!that's not really what i want to do, but it's the best i can do!