how come????

karaoke, finally!!=)

we finally went karaoke-ing. me and lc, after pushing it , and yea, we went to red box in the curve!it was a great outing, had fun, but most of all, it was so farnie, and scary at that moment. ok, here's how it went!they were having this promotion for Halloween, where you get a free something la. the catch is they will come in and scream, and probably suppose to say "trick or treat" or something like that. and these cb people did not even tell us. but anyway, we were singing half way, and then lc kissed me, or was it i kissed lc, ok...and we were kissing, when this Dracula just barged in and started screaming. omgggg, you know, it was so shocking, and at that moment, i thought was it some people whose gonna catch us for kissing in public or something like that. i really did not know what to say or do. and lc was also stunned. but the best part was she also did not know what to say or do. she just stood like dumb dumb looking at us. omggg!!!i could have disappeared in the air. both of us just stared at her, and she stared back. then lc din wanna make her feel stupid, he said "oh so scary", and she just smiled. then we asked her what is it. then she handed us some cards to pick. it was some lucky draw la. and yayy, we got free fish and chips!:)for scaring us and breaking our kiss, well, lucky we picked that.hehehehe, then the farniest part was, this Dracula went to another room, and those people screamed so loud, like it was so scary. that was seriously so farnie!they screamed dam loud. think they were singing and screamed in the mic. but gosh, that was so embarrassing la.hahahahahahahahahaha.

oh but well, that was one fun outing with lc.





singing with so much passion




i just realized i got nice shiny healthy hair!:P




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ok, i am not so hiao ok?i was imitatin britney's "don't let me be the last to know". thats y i look lik that

nobody has any right to say anything, cz nobody knows the truth. all of you hear from me, my blog, my point of view!but nobody hears from both sides. so listen properly to what's really going on.

when he doesn't say he loves me after a sms, i get angry. i never stop to think maybe he's busy.

when he's not so mushy and quiet, i get angry. but i never stop to think maybe he's injured or tired. when actually he was injured, and just couldn be as bubbly as he is always.

when i am pissed off over something, i shout at him, and make it seem like it was his fault.

when he tells me smth, i don't listen but at the exact moment, somebody else tells me smth, the same thing he said, and i listen immediately.

when he does something, something not wrong, but just diff, i get angry, cz it's not what i would do.

when he is a bit too honest, and i do not like his opinion, i get angry and sulk.

when he is saving money to buy me something, and at that moment he doesn't spend on me, i get angry and accuse him of being stingy and calculative.

i sulk over nothing. when he says something, and i don't agree, i get angry, and not talk. when actually what he said make sense

i get angry and sulk when he tells me he will text me when he is going to sleep, but when he takes awhile to reply me, i show my face and tone of voice. when actually he din sleep yet. he `was reading comics.

when he forgets to bring his phone to class cz he was rushing, and i sms him and he doesn reply, i get angry!he was rushing cz we both were chatting on msn. and i still get angry.

i get angry with him when he doesn want to spend money on me for something he knows well i wont enjoy. he knows i will not enjoy smth, but just cz he cant spend on me, i get angry.

i expect him to just care for me and just me, but even though he is not well, i do not care for him, but he doesn say anything, but i get angry cz he is not caring for me. i fail to realize that he also needs care. he's in pain!but no i show my face.

he's so happy that he can get tickets for mama MIA, the show I've been telling hi m i wanna watch so badly, when deep down, he hates `all this chick flick shows. but he was so excited to take me, and insisted that we go for gsc in the gardens. he insist on paying for me. but when we go home, i still can pick a bone with him cz he is being quiet.i never thought maybe his leg is painful, cz he sprained his toe. no i never realized all those.i just thought of my own skin.

he might not be the worlds best bf, who is?but he's not an asshole either. he might say things that can be very hurtful at times, he might be quite tight with his cash, but he is not a bad guy. he did not cheat on me, he is not abusing me, instead he cares for me more then cares for his own family. he is more affectionate to me then his own family.

i fail to see all this when we argue. i keep thinking only i am right, and he is to be blamed for every thing!. but when you look back, he gets hostile and super angry now ,cz he has reached his limits, and why has he become like that?cz i drove him to that point. i sulk and sulk and sulk over every dam thing.

i might get angry with him, over things which i will not say sorry about, and that's for him to work on. but on my behalf, i feel rotten cz i know a lot of things is cause i started it! and my ego is too big, to admit that it's my fault.

i know all of you care for me, and i am grateful i have all of you, but i am not a kid, i can handle my things, and i will tell u when i am ready to tell. and now everything is ok, why do i need to hear this?

if anybody reading this is not happy bout what i think, then keep it to themselves. don't go and put up your opinion on my blog, cz it hurts!cz right now, there is no problem!when everything is settled then only i hear all this. out of no where u get so hostile and say this and that. how do you think i feel?right on my face you just blurt out everything, when firstly, everything is solved, and secondly, i can handle it, and thirdly, this is between me and him. if we can come to a solution, then all of you should be happy and support me. if you blow up when things get bad, i understand, but you blow up when everything is solved!what kind of answer you expecting from me?

tet's and chris brithday

we celebrated sis's and Chris's birthday on sat CZ they wont be here on Tues ma!.it was a fun celebration, firstly, CZ it was just us family, and i baked them a cake. carrot walnut, CZ sister liked this cake. it wasn't hard, but a part of it back fired, the stupid icing pipe burst when i was writing the words. because of that, i had to use the colored hearts i bought in kl and decorated it and splashed it on top of the icing. looked pretty thought. phew!it tasted good though. my first attempt on a carrot walnut cake, first attempt using icing, first attempt using icing pipe but it burst!:(but it was so nice. sis was happy, and said it is the best birthday cake cz it's made and there's the personal touch!!awwww!. it doesn't look perfect but it's good enough!:Dcarrot wlanut with pancake syrup with extra TLC:D



















32 plus 26, makes it 58 candles!:D






happy happy family:dbut adam should be in too:(











the most beautiful dress i bought in i&r for only rm25:D

then we had our music in theater final presentation. our group was called the fantastic 11, named by Rachel;.hehe our theme was independance. (merdeka) in conjunction with merdeka (when we decided obviously)hehehe. it went well, and ws quite farnie though, but here's the fantastic 11:D


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i try to forgive you, be nice to tou, but your so bloody rude!your mother did not teach u manners?you give me this kind of reply. mofuko!!!

from now on, i am not going to sms u, call u, or even plan anything, you want u call me.!this applies to everybody who takes me for granted. not just you!everybody who thinks i will do everything, i will plan everything, i will make the move. i am not a doormat!i am not doing it. year in year out, any occasion, it's me who says "so what shall we do for...."?or "do you wanna meet"?when i tell you to plan, you pretend you did not hear it!you came back, you did not call me, instead have to keep sms ing u, wanna meet?etc....then when i sms u, u reply with rude kurang ajar sms. who you think you are?princess???pleasee la......all you people disgust me!go live your life with your abang la!you know how to copy me,follow every dam thing i do!stupid walking xerox machine!bunch of sickening pieces of shit!all of you la. one tries to copy me, one tries to be nice only to my bf, and not to me!!!

sometimes ifeel i am loosing my best friends, wait, so called best friends, but i think back, what's the point you call me best friend when you do this to me?i rather not have you as my friends!!!

sneaky snitches!

i despise sneaky snitches!!!!if you want something, do it in front of me, don't go behind my back and do it!you got a problem with me or with anything else, you tell me straight!you don't tell other people and i hear from other people instead of you!!i may be bloody hell sensitive over things, but this?i asked around, and no, it's not me being sensitive. i am normal to feel like that.

you call yourself my best friend, and you do this to me?you go behind me, YOUR FRIEND, and talk and confide in MY BOY FRIEND!and my boy friend tells me!!!!and why can't you talk to me instead you talk to him?when i am just there. you can click him in front of me, and NOT click me!how is that?don't you know messing with your friend's bf is a BIG NO NO?i know that's not what you mean, i hope i am right!but that doesn't mean you can all the time click him, confide in him your personal problem. he is not your best friend. he is your best friend's(or wait, so called best friend's) boy friend!you do this to me?don't you value our friendship?being close buddies since standard 5, and i hear this now!wouldn't it hurt?

now you tell my boy friend your problems etc. though i feel sorry for you, cz you have to go through it, but no, i do not want to talk to you. until you stop doing what you've been doing, i shall not click you and talk to you. i never had trust issues. but now, i start to doubt things and people around me!the last person i thought who would be sneaky is you. and this is what i get?friends it seems!!!!!!!

i cant believe it really happened!!it hurts to hear what you said to me. it hurts soooo much!!!when you told me i was the best gf, you were just saying it right?cz today i know how you really feel for me!you can't breathe. apparently i choked you. i could not make you happy. i demanded too much!and now you got wat you want. freedom. i couldn't give it to you!i will not say sorry for what happened, we just think differently. too different.

i did not realize you changed your status so fast!when you were still sms ing me!it hurts to see your facebook status. it hurts to see your picture which you were tagged. as in the whole clubbing was planned!but it doesn't matter anyway, that's what you said!that meant it's the end of it right?we din even reach 9 months of being together.

i realized a lot of things. that was how much i meant to you! everything was counted with dollar sign at the end.

you might not believe this, but it's gonna be one really hard break up for me!but guess you'll be fine. i wish you well!

our paths end here i guess!since this is what you want!you wanted to breathe, you wanted freedom, and you have it now!you have it all!!

i caused a lot of pain and tears for you. guess you deserve someone better then me!

it hurts to type this, but i guess i got to face reality, that it has happened!and i can't turn back time, and you've moved on!

i'[m sorry i couldn't make you happy all this while!guess we moved too fast!

i don't know if you will read my blog anymore, but it's ok.