i miss you

this post is not to complain. it's just to tell u how much i miss you. i really do miss u. i cant even talk to you because ur schedule is so busy. again, i am not complaining. and i do understand. please dun say i dun understand. i do!i know he doesnt have a choice. i know he cant help it too, but i just wanna say i miss you. on call all the time, the little time he is free, he has to rush back to hospital. i am proud of him as he puts people's life first before his. but i just miss him. when he told me before, that once he is a MO, life is going to be harder, he's going to be really busy. i said ok, and i was preparing myself. now it's only the beginning, i wonder wats next, or how is it going to be. wat if when i reallly need him he's not there?not cz he's out with his friends, but he's at work. i gotta be independent, that includes emotionally too. sigh. AGAIN, i am NOT complaining or whining. i am just EXPRESSING myself. i really got to get used to it. i know he is trying to juggle his time wshen he is free. and i really appreciate that. we enjoy each other's companionship. and i know he loves me a lot.. and i love him a lot too. *wo ai ni hen duo hen duo hen duo*. eheheh.


anyways, there's nth i can do bout it, but i will keep on supporting him ,and i wil lalways be there when he needs a cushion. going to continue plants vs zombies. aaron, itsa true. its dam addictive. lol. ok bye..

p/s: one of my friends got married or registered last week, no issues o nit. and congrats. but they were only dating for 1 year. 1 year!!!! and the worse part is, she quit her job to be a siu lai lai. and moved from penang to kota bharu just to be with him . ok first of all, i never liked her, not cz of anything she did to me directly, but she doesnt like women. she only laughs and smiles with guys. i wasnt the only one who noticed. all my girl friends also know, "X only know how to hehe haha with guys. with girls her face black black one". hahaha one of my best buddies in pbb said. ahahahahaha. see i am not the only one. so yeah. but whatever, not my life. hope she's happy lo.

so ok bye for reaL.

xoxo:
sullivanologist