8 months of working. yesterday i finally broke down...i have been controlling my feelings..controlling everything... and something triggered it off, and i couldn't take it... i did not want to break down, but i had to...nobody knows how i feel..and it hurts.. it's tiring.. it's stressful. how long more. i keep asking myself..but i cant seem to find an answer to it..i'm in between everything...i can't do it, but i have too. but i can't. everything's in a mess. and i don't know who to tell!!i'm really sad... and stressed and sick of everything that's going on...i just want to sleep!it's not bout avoiding the problem, but i can't seem to find a solution to it...i really am tired mentally..and every night i get night mares. thank god yesterday i din get any..
boss is an ass!wants me to bring in more and more sales... when i ask him to buy, he changes topic and says commitment to high. so your the only one with high commitment?others don't have commitment?today i closed one case. instead of keep motivating me, he ask me, "you closed a case?so how many cases this 2 weeks?"...bosses are suppose to keep motivating us. not demotivate us!!!!all they want is figure. you think i am not stressed?you think i am enjoying life here?NO MISTER. I AM NOT.one day you become Bse. i will go on leave. i wanna see how you sell. don't give me bullshit bout young fresh graduates have better ideas then old ppl.
went to 3 schools in this few days.. one school was a total parasite. 1 school was ok.. another school asked us to come back this Tuesday to talk to teachers. so looking forward to it. then on wed we r doing a roadshow in majlis perbandaran manjung... Steven will settle it. then i think Thursday need to go segari. sigh... but badri will go with us. cz we don't know way.
tomorrow is sales clinic kat ipoh... i am driving... then straight from ipoh will shoto back to ti..sat i am baking blueberry cheese tarts. but all depends if i can get all the ingredients. its bit hard cz i plan to go fro tournament in sasti on sat too.oh well..see how it goes!
branch dinner: swiss garden.. April 30th. duwan go but have to go. and they r gonna play some stupid couple games. gosh. imagine i get fat ass as my partner???or boss???or the other guy????eeeeeee...hope can bring ky.. Chloe plan to bring Charles....
ok lo... think will go knit. nothing to do also now!!!
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