urinary track infection

it's so painful!!!!!yesterday whole day, i was having this problem. i want to pee. my bladder is full, when igo sit in the toilet, it comes out a bit. and it smarts and burns. can you imagine?dah la the urine cant come out properly, then it burns, and you go out of the toilet with your bladder still full!!!!it's so torturing you know!almost the whole night i was in pain. cannot urine, then when urine pain. then after urine pain. omgggggg. i kept drinking a lot of water cz everybody seems to be having this urinary track infection. only advice is to drink gallons of water and barley!the pain went off, so i decided not to see dr cz i was fine dy. then see see evening i felt the pain again. then cannot urine properly. i told mom i have to see dr, cz i don't want to go through what i went through yesterday night. omggg!!!!so iwent to see uncle chan. he gave me this syrup to drink which smells like the medication they rub on you when they are injecting you. you know that cold sensation one? it's sour, mind you. yucks!and then he gave this hugeeee red capsules for antibiotics and another white one for urine. i think cz it's scientific name starts with ura....hehehe. so i just took my first doze of it. let's hope it heals. it hurts man!!

CONSOLATION

just a consolation to myself after being so angry, i baked blueberry cheese tarts o Friday. it was delicious. but the ingredients are so mahal. but i am going to bake again soon, CZ i only ate one miserable tart, and the rest gave people. was hoping i would have some when i come back from kl, but sigh. but yeah, i shouldn't complain, CZ i was planning to give everyone my tarts. so i am going to bake again. next recipe, Swiss roll r cookies=)

misunderstood!

I KEEP WONDERING, IS IT ME, OR IS IT PEOPLE AROUND ME?PEOPLE ALWAYS MISUNDERSTAND ME. I KNOW I AM SENSITIVE, I KNOW I AM HOT TEMPERED, I KNOW TO SOME PEOPLE, I AM NOT UNDERSTANDING ENOUGH, I AM NOT THE BEST THEY CAN GET, BUT I AM TRYING TO WORK ON MY FLAWS.I AM NOT SO SENSITIVE ANYMORE, I AM CONTROLLING MY TEMPER, I AM TRYING TO BE MORE UNDERSTANDING AND PATIENT!I AM TRYING!!!AND I CAN SEE THE DIFFERENCE. BUT OTHERS DON'T. PEOPLE ARE NOT GIVING ME A CHANCE TO CHANGE!!!!WHEN ARGUMENTS HAPPEN, I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF, MAYBE IT'S ME, MAYBE I AM BEING OVER SENSITIVE, MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS, SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT, ETC..BUT AFTER YOU ASK YOURSELF, AND YOU CAN'T GET AN ANSWER, YOU STAR TO THINK IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, AND PEOPLE MISUNDERSTOOD ME, AND THEY THINK BECAUSE LAST TIME, THE OLD ADELLE WILL GET ANGRY AND SHE WILL DO THIS, DO THAT, BUT HAS ANYONE TRIED TO LOOK AT MY POINT, HAS ANYONE TRIED TO SEE IF ADELLE WONT REACT LIKE THIS ANYMORE, SHE'S CHANGING?I HAVE GOT A LOAD OF EGO ON ME. I ADMIT THAT AND I AM NOT PROUD OF IT. I AM TRYING TO WORK ON THAT TOO. BUT WHEN PEOPLE AROUND ME TRY TO DEFEN THEMSELVES AND MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE VILLAIN, IT'S NOT FAIR, CZ I DID NOT DO ANYTHING,DID NOT THINK ANYTHING, I WAS JUST CURIOUS. IS IT WRONG TO EVEN ASK?WHEN PEOPLE SAY THINGS TO ME, I KEEP QUIET CZ I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THINGS WORSE. WHEN I ASK, IT BECOMES WORSE. IF THAT IS THE SCENARIO, I RATHER BE DEAF AND DUMB. LIFE IS PEACEFUL THEN. I HEAR NOTHING, I SPEAK NOTHING!!!I NEVER HAD ANY INTENTIONS OF ARGUING, BUT PEOPLE THINK I HAVE THAT INTENTIONS. I HAVE BEEN HURT SO MANY TIMES!I KNOW PEOPLE WILL SAY I AM SELFISH, AND I HAVE HURT PEOPLE WITH MY WORDS TOO, AND I AM AWARE OF IT, AND I AM SORRY. BUT IN THIS MATTER, I HAVE BEEN HURT FOR NO REASONS , WITH NO INTENTION OF ARGUING. MY THRESHOLD OF PATIENCE IS HIGH. IF IT WAS ME LAST TIME, I WOULDN'T BE BLOGGING HERE. I CAN ONLY EXPRESS MYSELF HERE. I TRY TO UNDERSTAND EVERYONE ELSE, BUT DOES ANYONE TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME?EVERYONE THINKS I AM FUCKING STUPID!CZ I AM THE ONLY STUPID ONE WHO WILL ASK IF JACK DANIEL IS STILL ALIVE, OR I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL ASK IF NARNIA ACTUALLY EXISTS.THAT IS JUST ME OK?I AM DUMB AND STUPID!!!I ASK STUPID QUESTIONS. WHO EVER READING THIS IS GOING TO SAY I AM TRYING TO GET SYMPATHY. I AM NOT FUCKING GETTING SYMPATHY HERE!!!I AM FEELING SHIT. CZ NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME. EVERYBODY THINKS THAT I WILL NEVER CHANGE. EVERYBODY THINKS WHEN I SAY SOMETHING, I WON'T DO IT. MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE OF MY ATTITUDE LAST TIME. BUT WELL ,WHAT EVER LA!!I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. I KNOW IF I SAY SOMETHING, AND I REALLY WANT IT,I WILL DO IT!!I AM NOT GOING TO EXPLAIN TO ANYONE WHAT I WANT TO DO!!I SAY IT ONCE, IF PEOPLE DON'T BELIEVE, THEN SUIT THEMSELVES!!!!!

AT THE END OF THE DAY, I AM ON MY OWN. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN, AND IT WILL STILL BE!

taged by cikgu violin, i think!

1. how well do you know your man?
er mm..we are still in the process of learning more about each other, but yes, i know him well enough to say that he doesn't believe in buying t shirts because they ware off fast=)

2. His age
23 years old

3. His Middle Name
lye..hahah. only my mom calls him that.

4. How long have you been together?
122 days=4 months=)

5. How long did you know each other before you started dating?
i knew who tho lye choong was in 2003, when i went to kl on my rendezvous trips with sister, CZ sis kept saying this 2 brothers( lye choong and lye shean) are damn funny kids etc. and they love wong kok. i think it was 2003, CZ he said the first time he met me was with braided hair, and i only braided my hair once, which was after spm, but then again, i can't really remember, CZ i braided my hair on 24Th December 2003 just before leaving for kl for Christmas. and i did not meet any of sister's friends then. so yeah.. hm mm, but we met each other twice before 4Th January 2008. we started seeing each other after this year.

6. What physical feature attracted you to him first?
erm, OK the first 2 times i did not notice anything CZ i wasn't attracted to him, i know lye choong, if your reading this, your gonna say "ouch" OK but yes, you were attached then, or scared, and obviously you din feel what you felt for me now right?but after 4Th January 2008, i realized he has side burns!!side burns are cool, and he looks good with it=)

7. Hair color
black. he doesn't believe in doing anything to his hair. his hair is virgin hair.

8. Eyes
black

9. Are you "in love"
duh!!!obviously i am "in love". OK, we just started, so yes, we are still very affectionate and will always be.=)

10. Do your parents like him
my mom loves him. sides him at times too, and not me=(lye is the biggest butt kisser.. jkjk.heheh..my dad, it's a bit too soon, CZ my dad only met him once. so yeah..=)

11. Does it matter?
it does, CZ when your parents are OK with him and the whole idea of it, it's like one burden off your shoulders. and at the end of the day, if your parents like him, they will trust their daughter with him, they will treat him like family.

12. Do you trust him?
yes, i do!=)

13. Does he let you wear his shoes?
if our feet are the same size, yes he would, i think!he he

14. Do you have a shirt of his that you sleep with?
actually i don't. time to go stealing baby!

15. Can you picture having kids with him?
yes actually, i have. 2 kids=). it would be perfect if we have one son and daughter. son first, then daughter, CZ i think brothers really sayang their sisters=)if it's a girl, we thought of calling her Clara, but no names for boys yet.he he and carrying his child, i think that's really sweet and nice=)

16. Are you happy to be with him?
for a matter of fact, yes i am!very happy. couldn't be happier!=)

17. Does he have any tattoos?
no, not yet.=) we were planning to get one each. a dragonfly, which symbolizes our love for each other. =)

18. Does he have any scars that you know of?
yes, across his chest. he had an operation when he was young. the scar is still there.

19. Is he a party dude or stay at home kind of guy?
yeah man. he's a party animal.=)always ask me when want to go clubbing. hahaha. but don't get me wrong. he doesn't go clubbing to pick girls up, never did. he wants to go clubbing with me.=)

20.Is he Outgoing or Shy?
outgoing at times, but LAN Si at times. i thought he was LAN Si at first too. but after you know him, he's very outgoing!but doesn't simply talk to women he doesn't know, which is good for me=)

21. Would he hang out with YOUR friends?
one of the reasons why he's always with me even though i go out with my pals in uni is because he can click with them too, and i don't have to entertain him and worry bout him feeling left out, CZ i know he will yack with them, though there are times he felt left out, and i 'm sorry for that.=/

22. Does he sing?
oh yes, i love his voice. he has a bass voice, and another thing that attracts me is guys with low voices.. nice!!!but given a choice with drums and singing, he definately go for drums. he he

23. Do you know how to turn him on?
obviously, yes!!!

24. How many times a day do you tell him you love him?
every time we talk, and end the conversation. if either one of us doesn't say it, its world war 3=P

25. Picture of him:
=)

i tag:

all on my list=)who have a bf/gf

weird dream

i had this weirdest dream yesterday night.have you all watched Sabrina the teenage witch? yeah, you all know there are 2 aunties right, Zelda and Hilda. OK this dream took place in Sabrina's house (in the show la of course, or not how would i know how her house look like right) so yeah, it took place outside her house, Sabrina was not there, but her aunt Zelda was outside, crying, and there was this door. OK this is going to sound ridiculous, but when she opened the door, it was in another world. have you watched "doraemon"? where he will ltake out a "pintu ajaib" and when you open the door, it leads you into another realm?yeah, this was like that. when u looked at the other side of the door, it's this huge field filled with blooming flowers, and oh, it was so beautiful, i remember seeing white lilies, which is my favourite flower=) and a few other flowers. it was so beautiful and breath taking. aunt Zelda was crying at the door step. then something even more weird happened, one of my mom and dad's friend, Mrs Mah came out from her iswara, and was carrying a basket, and inside that basket was a baby, a dead baby. so creepy right?she too was crying. she handed the basket with the dead baby to aunt Zelda and went back to her car crying. aunt Zelda was still crying, she took the basket and left it at the other side of the door, where the beautiful flowers were. then i heard my happy tree friends tone, which meant it was a dream, and it was already 10am, time to wake up. so weird right?sigh. wonder why we have so random yet weird dreams.

durian flavoured ice-cream

i have a sudden craving for durian flavoured ice cream. maybe it's because i have been eating too much blend food for the past few days, i really want to eat something yummy now. durian ice cream. where to find r?

bottled up!

remember i used *** on my previous blog.. OK..here is the outcome of the story..i will tell a bit and the conclusion, so all of you wont have question marks in your heads..

OK, first, there's been lots of conflict with them. a lot, till i don't know where to start, so i am not going to talk bout it. will talk bout the latest..OK so here goes.. every year, every occasion, there will be a dinner together. it's a known fact la, duh!!not to say we enjoy it, but it's a tradition, though i know nobody enjoys it, everybody doesn't talk, only the 4 of us talk among ourselves.pathetic right?but yes, that's how it goes every occasion. but some thing very unusual happened this occasion. we did not hear any news from them!till Sunday. so my dad asked my mom to call her and ask wat time is dinner and where. that woman answered, just woke up, bloody hell, it was 2pm when my mom called. see la, go "weng weng" every night. WHAT A GREAT MOTHER!anyway, my mom asked her what my dad asked to ask, and there was this Long pause, and she replied, and i quote, "mau pergi mana makan?semua tempat pun manyak orang, semalam saya angkat mak saya keluar, mau tunggu manya lama, lagi hari ini pun mau tunggu lama. " so my mom asked, " so hari ini tada keluar r?" she said, "takda la, kita pun tada buat apa-apa", mom, "oh, kalau tada then saya kasi ang pao la". and she also agreed and put the phone down. OK fine, so told my dad. dad was bit annoyed. he called the other lady at home. my dad asked how come no dinner, and you know what that lady said, OK it was in Hakka so don't know, but it meant that she is going for dinner with the rest. as in that lady my mom spoke to and her family. OK, i am not going to say anything, but if you were following me, you would understand the story, and you will understand why i am so so the angry!if your not, too bad for you!so anyway, dad got the hint. and i was sick ,so mom made porridge, mom cooked sardine for dad, and mom also ate porridge. OK story of the day finished.

next day, which is today, before dad went to work, he gave RM*** to my mom, telling her to go give her. my mom said to reduce it and give RM*** only. dad agreed. i took my mom to their house, and saw her. this is the interesting part. my mom asked me to tell the real situation because she would have only heard from that poisonous pixie, and every story , there are 2 sides to it right?so i told,in my broken Chinese, i told her what my mom actually meant and whats the reason, etc..she just switched topic and said, "aiya, kita pun tada buat busar-busar, sana *** **** pergi angkat ulang, sana kasi masak" then she said again in chinese to me. then she said this. "lain hari, tausah makan sama-sama la. sendiri makan boleh la". then i insisted on telling her again that we did want to take her out for dinner, but that poisonous pixie said there was no dinner!she heard, but ignored it, and said this ridiculous statement in chinese, "ngo de hou chong yi yat chai sek fan, pong ngo ge ****, *** ***, yat chai sek fan. ".i am too lazy to translate, but it was contradicting to her previous statement. my point is, even though they went for small time dinner, why couldn't call us?are we that small that no one thinks of my dad as an *****T ***?what do you think my dad is?some one you fetched from the dustbin r???Harlow...there is a fat lump there which is collected from somewhere also. but why even she gets all the benefits, and not my dad?** ** **.so do you see my point my dear readers?my dad is the ****** ***. what does he get?that stupid SCHCCB, you think your mother is dead means you can do all this r?you think your ****** loves you so much, you can keep doing all this r?wait la, karma bites you right at their ass. do some more la. do you see whats going on here?sigh, feel so sorry for my dad. but you know, it doesn't matter. my dad has a loving family, and best friends which = to a good family. he needs us, and we will always be there to support my dad no matter what!so **** all you ******* who treat my dad like that. i only give face to one person there. she is the only person i won't scold, though indirectly she is involved, but still, i love her very much, i know my dad is doing it only for her. not for those ** ****** ****** ******* gatal. all of you will get your karma. wait and see. bunch of foolios!**** with all of you piss heads, brains full of shit.

p/s: the ***** are censored words which cannot be used. firstly, i don't want to divulge too much info, second i made a vow not to swear remember?and a lot of the *** are bad words. i know it's still swearing, but at least i am not saying it. muahahahahah!

feeling down!

i am down with fever and tonsillitis!!i am feeling like crap now!emotionally, physically. i feel like everything is against me and my family!every one is particular!i don't know where else i can express myself!Wat else i can do!i don't know who to talk to. i just feel so depressed, so angry with those *******!they are not my family!!!*****..there are times i wish i would fall sick, and never recover and just die!i did think of it just now, you know hoe some people get fever, and never recover, and die. i thought maybe it will happen to me!!!!sigh!!life sucks at times!

tagged by ah choo=)

instructions:

1) list down 10 most sexiest men and 10 most sexiest women
2) put up their picture
3)put in on your journal
4)tag 5 friends

TOP 10 SEXIEST MEN:

# 1:

he is the handsomest and sexiest guy living on earth=P
korean actor, won bin


=)

# 2:


mcdreamy from grey's anatomy, patrick demsey. his eyes, his charm=)

# 3:


indonesian badminton player, taufik hidayat.cuteeee!!=)

# 4:


china's used to be number 1 player, xia xuanze=)

# 5:


keanu reeves, but rumours say he's gay.=/

# 6:


remember david duchovny?from the X files=)

# 7:


thats my little moo-moo=)

# 8:


he is so cute. gerald butler from 300, phanthom of the opera and p.s i love you=)

# 9:


batman guy, george clooney

# 10:


he is one dam bergaya man *winks*ken watanabi

TOP 10 SEXIEST WOMEN:

# 1:


she is one woman i wanan look like when i am grown up. she is a picture of beauty, class, elegance. kate walsh from grey's anatomy. (dr addison shepherd)


in grey' anatomy

# 2:


hot..jessica alba

# 3:


jennifer aniston

# 4:


she's not drop dead gorgeous, but there is just smth bout her that makes her look so sexy and hot.catherine zeta jones. zoro!=)

# 5:


eva longoria @ gabby from desperate housewives=)

# 6:


katherine heigl from grey's anatomy (isobel stevens)

# 7:


julia roberts

# 8:


cameron diaz=)

# 9:


keira knightley..though too thin but hses hot=)

# 10:


everything is so perfect.. hence her character in desperate housewives as bree. marcia cross

5 people i tag:
munny, siang yik, chung kai, cikgu violin, wai tuck

sugar pie honey bunch

this is for the one i love..TLC=)enjoy =)though its for u to sing for m e, but it's ok la=)

Sugar pie honey bunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else
In and out my life
You come and you go
Leaving just your picture behind
And I've kissed it a thousand times
Sugar pie honey bunch
Do anything you ask me to
I try to tear away from the screen
And there's nothing that I can do
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/ew4 ]
When you call my name, girl
it starts the flame
(Burning in my heart, tearing it apart)
No matter how I try, my love I
cannot hide, 'cause
Sugar pie honey bunch
I'm weaker than a man should be
I can't help myself
I'm a fool in love you see
Wanna tell you that I love
you, tell you that we're
through
I'm not a child
But everytime I see your face
I get all choked up inside

i am sensitive!

i finally realized how sensitive i am. sensitive towards my own feelings only, as what people tell me. and apparently not towards others, which makes me selfish!i realized i have a lot of flaws and i start to doubt myself in everything i do, i don't know if i say this, will it solve matters, or i don't, that will happen. i doubt myself a lot lately. and the whole problem boils down to me being sensitive.i am not proud of it, but i can't help it. I've got into lots of misunderstandings and arguments because of my sensitivity.

maybe i am selfish ,as people tell me, i know i am sensitive. so i have come to a conclusion, i won't sound my opinion and if i don't like it, i will just keep quiet and just tell myself to chill, and rationalize things on my own!maybe that will help. i know i have been saying this a log time ago, and people around me will notice i have been saying this a lot, but no action done. yes,i will do it!no more opinions from me, if i have question marks in my head,i will answer it myself.now isn't that a better idea?your happy, I'm happy!no one fights, no one misunderstands no one, everybody is happy!=)

i am sorry i am so sensitive. i am sorry for the times i hurt you by saying things that was only sensitive to myself, but not you!i am sorry for the times we have to argue because of me. i am sorry for everything i have said, and done. things will be better with my new motto "shutting up is the best policy".really!i will try to be a happy person and not start anything!!

me, the girls/my brothers/random

it was a fun night, meeting up with my buddy stephanie and my new buddy, helen (which is stephanie's buddy in kl by the way). on friday night, we went for char kuey teow. the famous one in sungai nibong!!those who tried it beofre, go on drooling.hahahahaha. anyway, it was a fun night, lots of catching up, bitching, haha, naturally.and before i went out:


naturally..=)and i look so fat my face.gosh!!




that's helen=)


stephanie=)


this is my bestest buddy and will always be. she and sheri are 2 buddies i can rely on and tell anything. sheri is my other best friend, FYI, which i shall put up more pictures of us when's she's back. yayyy!btu yeah, stephanie and me ,bestest budds since standard 5..=)


this is helen. though i only got tok now her last year, during priya's birthday, but we clciked immediately. she is just like me and stephanie. and one hell of a witty girl.=)and she loves dogs. she has a siberian husky. i am yet to see it=)


we think alike, we laugh at the slightest things, we are scared of rodens and roaches, we like orange, we like funky things, we like shopping, we are so alike, that's why we click..=)


being the vain me=)

ok ,then on usnday, which was 4th april 2008. the three of us went out again, this time jalan in bandar baru, went to stephanie's house to take picture=) and went ot the club to see her brother join some water sports.


this is a bar.. i know you know that, but it's in her house=)


her mother has green fingers=)


mini free taman negara=) omg, i love this picture. we both loo kso nice, and i look so slim!!!!!!i know it's deceiving cz i am not as thin as that, but hell, i look good, and of course, stephanie looks nice, always looked good girl!=)hehe


helen and stephanie


aiyo. this helen r. hold my camera, then go and take when i tengah zoom and take pic of them.


helen and me=)


=)


i am so vain


=)


more pictures in their cameras. so shall upload when i get them yeah?

my brothers are so cute. i just cant resist but to take pictures of em. sooo comel!


adam in the kennel








comel kan?i was trying to pull his toy from him, and he refused!




ok, this pictures below were supposed to long blogged, but never found the time to take pictures of it, you kan tahu, i orang busy?yeah righ, busy playing diner dash. hahahahah=) but anyway, below are pictures of smth i really like, and bought by someone i really love and i really appreciate it!


nice?it's a white elegant hand bag from vincci. and the person who bought it for me, which is my bf, said it looks like dim sum. (siu mai in particular) where got right?haha..but nayway, it's from vincci. i was eyeing that bag, but i couln't afford it, cz iwas having financial crisis, but i really liked it, and lc asked his friend to help him buy cz he knew i really wanted it. thanx my moo moo!i lreallyl ik it, and yeah ,it's not LV ( ok, firstly, i can't afford LV and LV bags are dammmmm ugly and aunty) sorry to my readers who are fans of LV, but this is just my opinion=) ok la, maybe i say so cz ican't afford even to buy the LV paper bag, what more the bag? so maybe thats y i am saying this.=Pbut yeah, LV is leather, and i am AGAINST ANIMAL PRODUCTS!!!!!this bag is not original leather, its pvs mix with smth, i am sure bout it.=)


beautiful isn't it?but of course, it just compliments the owner. it's only beautiful dpending on who carries it=)ahem*

another thing i bought myself without anyone knowing, only yi jing cz iwent with her, is this beautiful thing, =)


nice?it's this beautiful butterfly stone sandal from vid and vad. only rm45. ok ,not only, it was expensive but it's so pretty=)you have to agree on this!!even my mom said it was nice and wanted to loan it.


ok, you might be wondering where this picture was taken, or you guessed it, yes in my car, while waiting for stephanie and helen to go buy bus tickets..=D




=)

so werent' those pretty?=)me like, but no more shopping till end of the year. i have made a vow=)and i mean it!!!=P