feeling down!

i am down with fever and tonsillitis!!i am feeling like crap now!emotionally, physically. i feel like everything is against me and my family!every one is particular!i don't know where else i can express myself!Wat else i can do!i don't know who to talk to. i just feel so depressed, so angry with those *******!they are not my family!!!*****..there are times i wish i would fall sick, and never recover and just die!i did think of it just now, you know hoe some people get fever, and never recover, and die. i thought maybe it will happen to me!!!!sigh!!life sucks at times!