happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to mama(and myself)..happy birthday to you:)

i love you ma. we all do:)

depressing

as the day is nearing, the more i am feeling depressed. sigh.dunno why la. not looking forward to it. today is a depressing day. forcing myself to be happy, but deep down,i feel really down. grhhhhh....

camp is next week, and my stamina is flat:(.i haven't bought training shoes yet. prob buy this Tuesday or Wednesday. maybe Tuesday la.Wednesday too near camp Dy.will go mv, check if got. actually got, but just dam mahal. i sayang to buy so expensive, cz am going to use it to train, and it'l be used on rough surface.. so was thinking of goign to petaling street to buy. besides, not to say i am a tkd athlete. i only wear my uniform every december. i am not active. so a bi waste right, spend rm239 for a pair of shoes i only wear once a year?might as well buy from petlaing street, rm60-80 only. who cares if its original?right?doesn't make a dif. oh wait, it does. i might slip and fall if i buy those. hehehee.but oh well.. see how la.

October and November are horrible months for me. it's worse this November. with my work, and my personal life, despite having my birthday end of this month, but i would say it's the worse birthday I've ever had. no, ok, it's not over, but i know it's going to be a depressing one. maybe to outsiders, you won't know why, but i am not going to say why, but all i know is its a very depressing birthday:(..

I'm so stressed, till my period came late, and of all times, this month. i wanted it to come early, cz i am going for camp next Friday, seaside some more, then after that langkawi. believe me, the worse feeling is to have your period and train..some more wear white pants(our uniform)...gosh!with all the legs flying on air, and the splits, and stretching.. gosh!and i got history of staining. always!buuttt,, thank god my period came yesterday.. thanx to pineapples. i had to "induce" it out. i ate dam a lot of pineapples. and it came yesterday, but it came out brown. dark dark brown. not red. it look like i shit in my panties, but no, its not at my backside, it was in front. so obviously not. and i am not 3 years old to shit in my panties ok?some more no pain. that's dam shocking, cz every month, when it comes, i can barely walk!the pain is so painful, but now, no pain!but today, i finally can see it's getting red. not brown:)but not heavy la. prob need to continue eating more pineapples.hehehe.

then, my connection is so cibai. tiu betul la!i shall not elaborate more.. but just to let you know, it's sickening and cibaitic. TIUUU!

so u imagine la, with all this, how not to be depressed?ok.. there's more to what i wrote here. i am depressed over more serious substantial stuff ok?things worth calling problems!but it just adds to all this. sigh!i hate 2008. i hope 2009 is a better year for all of us. i know a lot of people hate this year, i hate it too!well cheers to a better 2009!:)

tiuu lei!

i shall not start all over again, cz i think i did put up a post starting with "from day one......."...so yeah, that walking xerox machine.its always her, isn't it?so u guys must be thinking, oh what now?and probably gonna go on with a string of bad words. well i am not, cz i already did just now. ask ee von.

the point is, i am too lazy to tell everything here again. but kesimpulannya, i am not jealous, just angry, cz she always follows only me, and then top me!then tries to compare me with her life, tries to compare me with her beloved uni. seriously, she needs to stay in an asylum.mentally crazy psycho people don't go to universities. they go to tanjung rambutan!

i honestly dunno what i did to deserve people like her around me!

i might be over reacting, but if any of my readers are going to come tell me that and not be supportive, i suggest don't say anything, cz my mouth now got no insurance!. i need to rant!urghhhhhh!!!!!!!

"the tenth tuesday we talk about marriage"-tuesdays with morrie

am reading this beautiful book written by Mitch album, "Tuesdays with Morrie". it's so touching and makes sense, and actually depicts real life. or maybe depicts my life. i wish i could quote the whole book, but i would like to quote this passage, cz it's just so true:

"there are a few rules i know to be true about love and marriage. if you don't respect the other person, you're going to have a lot of trouble. if you don't know how to compromise, you're going to have a lot of trouble. if you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you're going to have a lot of trouble. and if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're going to have a lot of trouble. your values must be alike."

"you must believe in the importance of your marriage"

m.o.s:D

we finalyl went to mos, the club everyone's talking about, nad i lik this club, not cz there are lots of guys trying to hit on us, but the atmosphere,it's a no smoking club. yohooo!!!except that the music, hmmmm. not really r&b lo. but its quite nice. me, ee von, bebeh and cheng choo felt the same too:D we bought bacardi and went to sis's place and got drunk there. then only went clubbing. hehehe.memang seronok!

my early birthday celebration

did not suspect anything. went to dye my hair with bebeh and she told me she felt like eating some penang food and asked if it's ok if we go little penang cafe in mid valley, so itold her i got no money, cz am really broke, and she said she belanja me.(of course say ok la)hahahaha..gosh, i sound like a parasite:P.well, it's just my bebeh only.heheheheehe..:PPPP

in the saloon before going to eat, she asked me:

bebeh: so you not doing anything with your friends this year?

me: no la..also no time.. besides, a bi farnie right, my own birthday i plan sometihng, if anything also should be they plan for me ma.a bit pai seh plan my own

bebeh: true true

so went to little penang cafe, i ordered curry mee, sis ordered har mee(prawn noodles la).then when i was eating, i just put in my first spoon, when i realized someone like strangle m from the BACK, and i cant remember what she said, was it "happy birthday" or "heyyyy" i really din hear, but i seriously got a scare, when i turned behind, it was cat and ee Von, holding a cake in front of me. awwwww.. i almost teared, cz no one has ever surprised me like this for my birthday before.. (ok, i know i sound pathetic, but yes, no one has ever surprised me on my birthday before) and though it was only my sister, ee Von and cat, but it thrilled me to bits, to get a surprise when i least expected it. they wanted to sing for me, but i said it's ok,cz a bit malu, so we skipped that, but did the cutting cake:)thanx for everything girls. i love you!behind all this was bebeh. thanx for being so understanding and caring:)bebeh forever yeah?:)and ee von and cat, thank you so much for making that effort to come to mv, planning with my sister, getting the cake despite being busy, having to work later, rushing to surprise me. i was really touched and happy:)thanx again for everything:)*big bear hug* to the 3 of you:). though it may look like nothing to others, but to me, what you guys did, really made me so happy and made me feel appreciated. so i shall let the pics talk. and bdw, i dyed my hair:i like it.hehehehehe..






MY HAIR:P






Chocolate hazelnut cake, from cake sense:D












the books was from my sister. i asked her to buy me that for my birthday. so cool. her books sure very nice and can cry kind. just like p.s i love you:)







card and glitter was from lc. the natural hand made soap from chee wei, cheng choo, ee von and cat. thank you so much. i sayang to use la, cz it smells so nice:)and the box is so pretty:)hehehehe. but i liked it. thanx yea?:)


oh i treated myself to this book:D

thanx again bebeh, ee von, cat for the little mini celebration. though mini, but i was super touched and happy. thanx yeah?

and to ee von, cat, cheng choo, chee wei, bebeh, lc, thanx for the gifts:)