hip hip hooray.. show over.. and it was fantastic..really really good!!!!I'm so proud of myself, and my group mates. ok, i don't know how it went, cz i haven't seen the video, but all i know it was great, cz i gave my very best and that's all that matters. we went through a lot during rehearsals, i had to go through a lot, cz i had lot's to improve.. but it's all worth it. it all paid off. the tiredness, late nights, working on breathing techniques,improving my vocals, memorizing script, getting into character, being someone else, living a new lifestyle, in a new place, letting my imagination go wild, exploring, crying, reading more, thinking, experimenting, all paid off!!!!and i couldn't have done it without a lot of people. so here are my acknowledgments::)
first of all, i would like to thank yi jing, as my director of "lamaran". you helped me a lot, guide me a lot, and you did your best. without you, this show wouldn't be a success. there wont be any lamaran.thanx girl.
my group mates, mei leng, thank you so much for being a fantastic scenographer, and al lthe hard work paid off. thank you:)
adi, nice working with you, we built that chemistry as time went by:)..thanx and congrats. you did a great job:D
kak isma, thank you so much for helping us.:)you were good. tuji bonne!:D.sayang you mama:D
aini, good pm:)..congrats and well done!:)
to puan rose, mummy, thanx a lot. you were there for us, you helped us, you helped me a lot, gave me ideas, taught me how to be someone else. from year one till now, you've always helped us. we love you mummy!
mama, papa, thank you so much for coming down all the way from teluk intan to come support me:)..meant the world to me:)..thank you for having faith in me. and believing in me, and trusting me that i can do it!:).thank you so much ma and pa. love you:)and thanx for the beautiful flowers.:)
to bebeh, thank you so much for tolerating with me, i know i have been quite a pain lately, with my moods and stress, but you had faith in me, and believed in me too. knowing i will do just fine, and make it through. thanx for coming, and supporting me. i love you. and thanx for the flowers:).and thinking of getting me flowers. sayang you bebeh:)
to Chris, thank you so much!thanx for coming, thanx for bringing my parents there.. and for coming and supporting me:)..sayang you:)
Darlene, Leonard, Chloe Leon, thank you so much for coming and supporting me.. it was so great to see all of u, right in front, supporting me. felt likE crying when i saw all of u.and thanx for the bear:)it meant so much to me:)..
cheng loon, thank you so much for coming. i was so happy to see you that when i came down , i wanted to hug you. i haven't seen u for ages. and it was great. thanx for coming. you still came though u were alone. thanx so much!!!!!:)..we must catch up k?MUST!THANX AGAIN..SAYANG YOU:)
foo cheong, though you came late, but it's good enuf. you came. and thank you so much:).will give u a copy k?thanx so much yeah?seeing all of you was just so nice:)thanx again.. keep in touch k?
Ming tat, thank you so much for coming:)haven't seen you for ages, but it was sweet of you to come and support me. hope you had a good time:)yumcha yeah?:):)thanx again:)
wyno and Doreen, thank you so much for coming on Sunday:):)..glad you had fun and enjoyed the night. to see your family there, supporting you, what else can i say?:):):)..thank you so much, so sorry had to rush out, cz of viva, wanted to take picture with you guys, but never mind, you came, and supported me:)thank you so much. love you both:):)
ee Von, cat, Amy, jian, chee wei, cheng choo, thank you so much for coming. seeing all of u in front there,i realize i have so much support from my best friends. thanx so much for coming and supporting me, and thanx for the beautiful flowers:):)love you guys;)
kok hou, sen jie, thanxx so much for coming.it was a real surprise to see you there. thanx so much. really really touched!:D
Stephanie, Shirley, raynita, resh, Jason, Evelyn, boy, Helen, kash,Daniel, thank you so so much for coming and supporting me. it was so nice, to see all of u, and so sorry couldn't take pic with you, had dam viva after that. but thank you so much. love all of you. will catch up soon k?:):):)thanx a lot:)
hock chai, wai moi, chee sen, Winnie, omggg, so nice to see u here. and thanx for the flowers. thank you so much for coming:):0..and supporting me. i duno how to express my feelings la:)..so touched:)..thanx again yeah?:)
izad, abu, torrez, cot, i saw u guys. but tak sempat to come talk to you, but thanx so much for coming and supporting me:)love you guys. thanx yeah?
eddy, thanx for coming, and thank you so much for the rose:D..sayang you
adeq, thanx for help and advice:)..congrats on a great show too:)
rin,you came!!!thank you so much!!!!:)*hugs*.. meant so much to me..thanx yeah..treat u one day k?:)
jian, thanx for the music. helped a lot:):):)..*hugs*
fairuz....thanx for all the support.. :P..we sama-sama support each other alright?:Pgood luck
jerrica,leslie:thanx so much for the customized cupcakes:D:D:D..love it and touched!*hugs*
to those who couldn't make it but sent their wishes and supported me and gave me hope and confidence and believed in me that i could do it, Nicholas, thank you for believing in me that i can do it, and supporting me all the way from ti. i understand why you couldn't come, but it's ok. ang, thank you for trusting me that i could do it, and for calling me on Saturday, to wish me luck:)sayang you. Mei Mei, thanx for luck, Cher, it's you. heheheeh. it's ok, but thanx for believing in me. will give you all a copy k/:):)promise. with my signature.:P.Judy: thanx for luck and trusting me:), Elizabeth: thanx a lot.soo chin hong:thanx:)Edwin go:thanx yeah:)siew li: thanx.. :)shamini:thanx babe:)..ernie: thanx yeah:)jing yan:thanx yeah
Alex, you helped us a lot, and you deserve a big bear hug.thanx for helping us take care of lighting, and for both days you came, watch, helped us out, support me as an actor, you really are a great pal, buddy:):)..thank you so much for everything. we're gonna graduate, i feel like crying, cz this might be our last time working together, and I've seen you grow, and you've seen me grow, we all have grown Alex. remember, you were my spider man for improvisasi gerak lakon.ahahahahha.. and look where we are now?:).. you did a great job as pm, and for di sebalik pintu, and for lamaran. thank you so much!!!:)*hugs*
kak lenny, thank you for advise. teaching me how to be better, supporting me and believing in me:)*hugs*
to all my course mates, thank you for making this a success:)
to all the satu production, i love all of you. we shall meet n pangkor yeah?:):):)
ah long, thanx for helping in the set:)
Simon, thanx so much for all the help. you guys are so sweet la. help us out so much. sayang you very much:)..thanx again for everything buddy:):)
thank you to our crew for helping us out in everything, soon hon, kai soon, ter chai, choon heng, thanx a lot:)
to everybody who has helped me directly or indirectly, thank you so much!!!love you all!!!thank you again:D:D
i love all of you. thank you so much:):):)super big bear hug to everyone!!!!:)
Tuesday, 31 March 2009
Friday, 27 March 2009
wow
the hardest thing to do is to insert contact lenses into your pupil and removing it.omgggg!!!!!!!but after putting it on, it's like wow... never seen myself with that eyes. ahahahaha... but a bit the scary though.. the inside is black, and the side is blue. wow!!!!!my sis said it's scary.hehehe.. oh well, nak jadi budak rusia kan?korban la.hahaha. with the red eyes, and the torture to insert it. hehe..
ok, gtg.. going to watch "disebalik pintu" then help them bump out, then bump in...tired tired!but it's goign to be over soon. hang in there baby!!:D
ok, wish me luck!see ya. bubye
ok, gtg.. going to watch "disebalik pintu" then help them bump out, then bump in...tired tired!but it's goign to be over soon. hang in there baby!!:D
ok, wish me luck!see ya. bubye
Thursday, 26 March 2009
don't forget
adelle dear, don't forget to remove your half painted or ugly blue nails and don't forget to shave your legs ok?it's a very disturbing scenario, when you are wearing a dress and your legs are exposed and your leg hair is also exposed to the public, and it's worse when your hair is long and black and curls. so adelle, please shave ok?you are the highlight this saturday and sunday. you wouldn't wanna confuse the audience with your gender!:P...
over.what's next?
presentation and french test over. omggggg!french was so hardd... omg omg omg!!!!!think am goign ot get 3 percent only. shit la. anyway, presentation went ok, except stupid elie wong came late. everyone was waiting for her. and somemore can ask me for my slides. dumb!!!anyway, no time to talk bout her. so what's next???????MY SHOW. MY FREAKING SHOW!it's on saturday and sunday. and oh, i darkened my hair. now it looks nice. its brownish gold. it looks very natural. but at same time, still bright and blond:D. shall update pics after show k?super freaking busy this whole week.and my hair is super soft now:D.. and i managed to buy blue contact lense. no power one. the colour is baby aqua.:D..but haven't tried. tonight will test.hehehehehe. wonder what's the color on my eyes., cz my eyes are already dark brown.hehehehe
bebeh took me to go buy shoes yesterday. managed to get some really ugly aunty shoes from juke box for my show la of course. :(..so everything almost settled. lets hope it all goes well. it's scary, but i will pull through:)..with the support of my family, relatives, and close friends.. i am sure i will do my best:D
ok, gotta run. wish me luck for my show!:)..AU REVOIR..
bebeh took me to go buy shoes yesterday. managed to get some really ugly aunty shoes from juke box for my show la of course. :(..so everything almost settled. lets hope it all goes well. it's scary, but i will pull through:)..with the support of my family, relatives, and close friends.. i am sure i will do my best:D
ok, gotta run. wish me luck for my show!:)..AU REVOIR..
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
today is a bright day
ok, is not literally a bright day. was stuck in jam for one and a half hours, from kota damansara to um. supposed to have breakfast with cat and ee von at 815. but couldn make it. jam cz it was raining cows and pigs!!omgmggg.. gila rain and lightning and thunder. dumb!yesterday so hot!
but anyway, i wore sis's gold baju kedah today, cz thought got presentation ma. when i was walking out today, was carrying sis's giordano bright orange umbrella. that's when i realized iam very the bright today. orange umbrella, yellow hair, gold clothes, orange tumbler, orange watch. orange stripes bag. the only thing which din really match was my shoes, cz i wore alice today. hahaahahahahahahah. and my nails are still blue. heheehe
then even dr hanafi commented.."adelle, hari ini baju you sama dengan warna rambut". tak boleh nampak perbezaan. kalau you pakai tudung baru boleh nampak," ok, i din like the tudung part, but yeah, after he said that, i realize my hair memang same color. hahaahahahah..
anyway, going to see if class really canceled, then going to paramount.. then go with yi jing to buy shoes for show. so see you..bye
but anyway, i wore sis's gold baju kedah today, cz thought got presentation ma. when i was walking out today, was carrying sis's giordano bright orange umbrella. that's when i realized iam very the bright today. orange umbrella, yellow hair, gold clothes, orange tumbler, orange watch. orange stripes bag. the only thing which din really match was my shoes, cz i wore alice today. hahaahahahahahahah. and my nails are still blue. heheehe
then even dr hanafi commented.."adelle, hari ini baju you sama dengan warna rambut". tak boleh nampak perbezaan. kalau you pakai tudung baru boleh nampak," ok, i din like the tudung part, but yeah, after he said that, i realize my hair memang same color. hahaahahahah..
anyway, going to see if class really canceled, then going to paramount.. then go with yi jing to buy shoes for show. so see you..bye
elie wong...who do you think you are?queen of london??
stupid ass wipe!!last Tuesday i told u to give me your points in SOFT COPY. email to me. told you to give me on Thursday morning, you tell me you haven't finish!and say will give me on Friday morning. wtf?who is doing final project now?and who is more busy?i said fine!then on friday night i see you, you tell me you haven't finished. again, wtf?i was pissed but she said will send on sat. i still said ok!on sunday afternoon, i checked my email. no fucking email. sunday ok?you promised saturday!!!on monday,i checked, no email from you. so i decided to just do it, screw you la. it's your presentation. as long i save my own ass,and do my own. if dr hanafi ask, will say i dunno.
today,(tuesday morning) supposed to present today. when ask her, you know wtf she tells me?oh, my pc spoilt, so i type and print here. wtfff?who ask you give me hard copy?you moron!!!this is a power point presentation. not assignment to pass up. wtf?which part of my sentence you did not understand when i said i want you to email me so i can do the slides together?EMAIL LA MORON. email is not hard copy!!ITS SOFT COPY!!and today presentation, today u give me your HARD copy. and can dare give me and say, yeah i do dy. WTF?who do you think i am?your fucking slave?to fucking do your fucking work?then give me that cb face!!!!!!right on your face, i told you, i am not going to do your work. you want, you do it yourself. the only thing is our presentation pushed to Thurs. so i told her to do her own, in slide form, unless she wants to present with her hard copy notes in front. suit herself. but i am not doing anything. fair enough right?i gave you time, being the good person, volunteered to do the slides, but you don't appreciate what i do, wanna mess with me, think i won't get angry. just cz i never blew my top in pusat, does not mean i wont!!!!i have done it several times. so go do your slides, and dun tell me anything. i don't wanna know what's going on in your life!!just don't bring us in!!!.
today,(tuesday morning) supposed to present today. when ask her, you know wtf she tells me?oh, my pc spoilt, so i type and print here. wtfff?who ask you give me hard copy?you moron!!!this is a power point presentation. not assignment to pass up. wtf?which part of my sentence you did not understand when i said i want you to email me so i can do the slides together?EMAIL LA MORON. email is not hard copy!!ITS SOFT COPY!!and today presentation, today u give me your HARD copy. and can dare give me and say, yeah i do dy. WTF?who do you think i am?your fucking slave?to fucking do your fucking work?then give me that cb face!!!!!!right on your face, i told you, i am not going to do your work. you want, you do it yourself. the only thing is our presentation pushed to Thurs. so i told her to do her own, in slide form, unless she wants to present with her hard copy notes in front. suit herself. but i am not doing anything. fair enough right?i gave you time, being the good person, volunteered to do the slides, but you don't appreciate what i do, wanna mess with me, think i won't get angry. just cz i never blew my top in pusat, does not mean i wont!!!!i have done it several times. so go do your slides, and dun tell me anything. i don't wanna know what's going on in your life!!just don't bring us in!!!.
Monday, 23 March 2009
oh i forgot
oh i forgot to tell you, i finished my slides dy. hehe. but now i got to go back, touch up, read up to present tomorrow.
things to be done:
1)study french
2)touch up presentation
3)rehearsals
4)buy shoes
5)dye hair
6)do the 2 reports for pemasaran seni(annex and group presentation)
7)do our final project report
8)do individual assignment for tinjauan theatre asia and group assignment(bunraku)..minimum 15 pages.:(..excluding lampiran:(...and need to do citation, head note, foot note and all those crap. sighhh!
9)study tinjauan theatre asia, pemasaran seni, french
10)look for jobs
:(:(:(:(:(
things to be done:
1)study french
2)touch up presentation
3)rehearsals
4)buy shoes
5)dye hair
6)do the 2 reports for pemasaran seni(annex and group presentation)
7)do our final project report
8)do individual assignment for tinjauan theatre asia and group assignment(bunraku)..minimum 15 pages.:(..excluding lampiran:(...and need to do citation, head note, foot note and all those crap. sighhh!
9)study tinjauan theatre asia, pemasaran seni, french
10)look for jobs
:(:(:(:(:(
rehearsal soon
got rehearsal at 6pm(another 2o minutes to go)..hungryyyy!!!.gosh, almost all my blogs got smth bout food or hungry. hmmm!!!maybe i got worms in my stomach. always hungry!
wonder whats' dinner later.hmmmm.
am home laone tonight. sis gone to pangkor for field trip, lai yin not coming back tonight. but i got to sleep late. got to study french, touch up my presentation.
dam elie wong din send me anything.ISHH!!!!!!don't care la. she fail her own presentation, not my problem. gave her time till today, still din send me anything.
anyways, gotta run. stressful day and week ahead. wanna go warm up first.
p/s: i know where is the AEISEC office is dy. hahahaahaha.. 3 years in UM, and so near my fac, but never knew where was the AEISEC office. that day foo cheong told me where is it. it's near or same floor with where we always have rehearsals and warm up. hahahaa. no wonder always see him there. lame la me.hehehe.. first i get excited when i discover window blinds, now i get excited when i know where is an office, which has nothing to do with me at all. hahahaa..anyway, at least i know where is it now. ok bye
wonder whats' dinner later.hmmmm.
am home laone tonight. sis gone to pangkor for field trip, lai yin not coming back tonight. but i got to sleep late. got to study french, touch up my presentation.
dam elie wong din send me anything.ISHH!!!!!!don't care la. she fail her own presentation, not my problem. gave her time till today, still din send me anything.
anyways, gotta run. stressful day and week ahead. wanna go warm up first.
p/s: i know where is the AEISEC office is dy. hahahaahaha.. 3 years in UM, and so near my fac, but never knew where was the AEISEC office. that day foo cheong told me where is it. it's near or same floor with where we always have rehearsals and warm up. hahahaa. no wonder always see him there. lame la me.hehehe.. first i get excited when i discover window blinds, now i get excited when i know where is an office, which has nothing to do with me at all. hahahaa..anyway, at least i know where is it now. ok bye
you can do it
another 5 days!!!5 more days and I'll be free-er.. at least free from rehearsals:D.. i can do it.. i am scared, but i know i can do it.. i will!!:D..i have faith in myself!!!!!!!!i will bring everyone into "my world"...
i got french test on Wednesday, and again, i believe i can do it too:D..
i got french test on Wednesday, and again, i believe i can do it too:D..
omgggggg!!!!!
someone is using that cologne!!!!the smell is nice, but it brings too too much memories!!!!!!!it's my lecturer.. sitting next to me now!!and using that cologne!!!urghhhh!!!i don't want to smell it!!!!!
Friday, 20 March 2009
i am hungryyy
i am very the hungryyy!!!very very very very hungryyyyy!!!!my stomach grumbling.. thought can go dinner, but some people had to go back shower. ishhh!!!!!!
just finished final preview.. it went ok.. Pn rose said I've improved a lot.. a lot..and I'm using all the space, BUTT my vocals still need to work on it!:(..still too shrill and sharp...but i will work on it!.. i will!!i have exactly 7 days..
adelle, you can do it.. another 7 days!!!7 days!!!
just finished final preview.. it went ok.. Pn rose said I've improved a lot.. a lot..and I'm using all the space, BUTT my vocals still need to work on it!:(..still too shrill and sharp...but i will work on it!.. i will!!i have exactly 7 days..
adelle, you can do it.. another 7 days!!!7 days!!!
lots to upload..
i have lots to upload, but just too lazy, so will upload when i am in the mood k?prob after show la.. too busy to upload. wanna see, check out my fb. it's all there!
gonna continue my presentation. stupid elie wong hasn't given me her info. suppose to give me yesterday morning, then she said yesterday night she will email me, but i haven't got anything yet. chee bye!!!!!stupid crazy woman!so fucking unlucky to have her in my group.. crazy, weird, woman!!!!!!some more can dare say she's busy. busy what?me and dina final year students, got show coming up also we can manage our work, this tiu na seng telling me she's busy, when you're only 2nd year. yeah la.. go photostat everyone's notes, and sell la. of course busy. if by sat i don't get anything, she can fuck off. i am not going to put her name, then when lec ask, i will say she din give me her part. think what i am?already good enuf, i am so busy, i still said I'll do introduction and my part, and the whole slide show, all you got to do is ur part. i will type everything in power point, cant even do that. don't piss me off. I've never been a bitch to let anyone fail, but if forced to,i will, cz right now, i got no time to do your part too. so don't fuck with me right now. I'm not in a good mood, and i have no time for all your crap. so just give me your part if you do not want to fail your assignment and presentation(30%)..
gonna continue my presentation. stupid elie wong hasn't given me her info. suppose to give me yesterday morning, then she said yesterday night she will email me, but i haven't got anything yet. chee bye!!!!!stupid crazy woman!so fucking unlucky to have her in my group.. crazy, weird, woman!!!!!!some more can dare say she's busy. busy what?me and dina final year students, got show coming up also we can manage our work, this tiu na seng telling me she's busy, when you're only 2nd year. yeah la.. go photostat everyone's notes, and sell la. of course busy. if by sat i don't get anything, she can fuck off. i am not going to put her name, then when lec ask, i will say she din give me her part. think what i am?already good enuf, i am so busy, i still said I'll do introduction and my part, and the whole slide show, all you got to do is ur part. i will type everything in power point, cant even do that. don't piss me off. I've never been a bitch to let anyone fail, but if forced to,i will, cz right now, i got no time to do your part too. so don't fuck with me right now. I'm not in a good mood, and i have no time for all your crap. so just give me your part if you do not want to fail your assignment and presentation(30%)..
blond
here are my pictures of me blond!!!the reaction was mostly "omggs" and "speechless". well i was speechless myself. going to darken it soon!forced to do it...
people probably think i am wild and some ind of rebel.. well, to be honest, I'm always the one who dare do all this stuff, compared to sister.. so in some people's eyes, i can be the rebel in the family. though i am not wild like some, but I'm the one who cuts my hair really short, dyes it green, uses wax and spikes it, braides my hair, the only thing i haven't done is tattoo and piercing la)hahaha... then now blond. I'm the one who spends money like nobody's business, I'm the pampered one!!anyway, here the pictures. after wed it will be darker..
P/s: stil lthinking if i should get blue contact lense. hmmmm... to look more russian..
i know, its really yellow. well, it should be a nicer color on wednesday. if i still have hair on my head la.
don't understand why people can over react so much?it's just hair.. it's just a color!!chill la!!!i already said will darken it right?i also din expect it to be sooo sooo bright. din know bleach would turn out like that.
add more stress to me!and i DON'T NEED TO HEAR ALL THIS, I DON'T NEED ADDITIONAL STRESS.!
people probably think i am wild and some ind of rebel.. well, to be honest, I'm always the one who dare do all this stuff, compared to sister.. so in some people's eyes, i can be the rebel in the family. though i am not wild like some, but I'm the one who cuts my hair really short, dyes it green, uses wax and spikes it, braides my hair, the only thing i haven't done is tattoo and piercing la)hahaha... then now blond. I'm the one who spends money like nobody's business, I'm the pampered one!!anyway, here the pictures. after wed it will be darker..
P/s: stil lthinking if i should get blue contact lense. hmmmm... to look more russian..
i know, its really yellow. well, it should be a nicer color on wednesday. if i still have hair on my head la.
don't understand why people can over react so much?it's just hair.. it's just a color!!chill la!!!i already said will darken it right?i also din expect it to be sooo sooo bright. din know bleach would turn out like that.
add more stress to me!and i DON'T NEED TO HEAR ALL THIS, I DON'T NEED ADDITIONAL STRESS.!
dunno
i dunno how to describe this feeling inside me now.
i'm so tired, i'm so stressed, everything is piling up, BUT NOT BECAUSE I AM LAZY AND PROCRASTINATING, BUT i got no time... with my rehearsals, and assignments, tests, reports, shit la!!!!!!!!
i feel like crying(and screaming) cz i dunno what to do now.. thank god my show is next week. but at the same time, i dunno if i am prepared!my vocals, my character, my body language, my articulation, my tone, i still got this habit of using head voice.. which is a big problem for me now!!!!sighh!!!i feel i am getting better, but my director doesn say it, which means it's just me that thinks i am getting better..
then after show, got to worry bout my report. its so hard to do. not hard actually, a lot to do. it's like a mini thesis!:(..then got my individual assignments for tinjauan asia, then got report and assignment for pemasaran seni, then got to study for french.. test on wed. sigh!!
i really dunno how. i'm so mentally and physically tired. think during show, going to buy livita or red bull to get instant energy.
i'm so tired, i'm so stressed, everything is piling up, BUT NOT BECAUSE I AM LAZY AND PROCRASTINATING, BUT i got no time... with my rehearsals, and assignments, tests, reports, shit la!!!!!!!!
i feel like crying(and screaming) cz i dunno what to do now.. thank god my show is next week. but at the same time, i dunno if i am prepared!my vocals, my character, my body language, my articulation, my tone, i still got this habit of using head voice.. which is a big problem for me now!!!!sighh!!!i feel i am getting better, but my director doesn say it, which means it's just me that thinks i am getting better..
then after show, got to worry bout my report. its so hard to do. not hard actually, a lot to do. it's like a mini thesis!:(..then got my individual assignments for tinjauan asia, then got report and assignment for pemasaran seni, then got to study for french.. test on wed. sigh!!
i really dunno how. i'm so mentally and physically tired. think during show, going to buy livita or red bull to get instant energy.
it's ok
it's ok to cry..
it's ok to be a cry-baby at times..
it's ok to let go and free yourself..
it's ok to break down once in a while..
it's ok, adelle, it's ok..
if it makes you feel better, then just cry!!!!
it's ok to be a cry-baby at times..
it's ok to let go and free yourself..
it's ok to break down once in a while..
it's ok, adelle, it's ok..
if it makes you feel better, then just cry!!!!
new obsession
my new obsession is window blinds.:D:D:D..was playing with it yesterday... dunno why, suddenly caught my attention.ahahahahahaahahaha.*lameee*
addicted.....
i'm addicted to the latest gardenia butter scotch bread.. omggggg!!!!!it's super delicious. this is the first itme i can eat bread for idnner. i normally will whine alot, cz not filling la.. cz i need meat, but this is gooodd!!!!been eating it for dinner and lunch few days dy. hehehehe
Thursday, 19 March 2009
out to lunch
going for lunch with Stephanie and anusha.. going for chicken rice.. ipoh chicken rice.. kat jalan gasing there.. yayy.. pork balls!yohoooo!!!!
see ya!bye!
see ya!bye!
zut!!!!!
zut!zut!!zut!!!!!!next wednesday is another petite test. what else?french la!!not so petite after all!seriously mourie la.. it's getting harder.. i'm struggling.. and i got no time to study.. but have to..zut la!!!sigh.. with my assignment, presentation, show, report, omgggg!!!!!!!!!my show is next week. next weeeek!!!!!!less then 2 weeks. i'm so so scared and stressed!!omggggg!!!
good news: my family, relatives, and most of my close friends coming!!:)..and some not even close.. they coming...
bad news: i need the support, but at the same time, i'm scared, cz everybody is coming to support me. so i mussst do my best.. and i will!!!:D
good news: my family, relatives, and most of my close friends coming!!:)..and some not even close.. they coming...
bad news: i need the support, but at the same time, i'm scared, cz everybody is coming to support me. so i mussst do my best.. and i will!!!:D
eeewww
you were horny!eeew!!!how can you get horny when nothing happened?and eeeewww!!!not in front of me!!please la!!wear underwear can or not!!!you make it harder for me to look at u eye to eye.. and i have to....urghhhhh!!!!!it's odd, disgusting and just plain eeeww!the last thing i need to know is if your horny or not!!!!!this cannot go on, why are all of you so dam perverted?and eeeww...normal ppl dun get turned on so fast. and i was just standing there and talking to u, and there it goes.... high and hard!!!gosh!!!!!!!i cannot imagine what's gonna happen if your in front of a naked lady then...hence the increase on rape cases.. now i know why!eeeewwwwww!!!!!
let's hope today is not a horny day, for him!!!!
let's hope today is not a horny day, for him!!!!
you'll never walk alone
When you walk through a storm hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
wasted wasted
i have been sitting here since 12.15pm, and guess what i did?i checked facebook, my blog, my email, and oh, i loked up info on bunraku, chikamatsu, typed a little bit of my introduction for presentation(power point), then i continued emailing people, chatting with friends, helped miera resize and download her poster (which took a while cz it's so bigggg)..chat with eddy fro a while, continued my downloads, finished donwloading desperate housewives season 5 episode 14, read a bit of my info which i stole from Wikipedia:P, listened to "if you dont wanna love me" by james morrison again and again and again, chat with Darlene, Stephanie, made lunch plans tomorrow with Stephanie, ate rojak, continued reading the same sentence i have been reading since 3pm:(, checked fb again, (still checking), replied friends post and comments, invited more people to my show, promised mei will give her a video of my show with my signature(ok she asked ok)hahahaah, went to pee, typed a bit of my presentation slide, and now it's almost 7, and i am suppose to close my laptop and go for dinner, then rehearsal at 830pm.. so i wasted my whole afternoon, cz i was planning to finish up my presentation (my part) and read up more info on bunraku so i can present with confidence, but sigh, BUT AT LEAST I DID A BIT LA. NOW NO NEED TO WORRY SO MUCH BOUT INFO, CZ GOT INFO DY MA. so ok la.heheehehe..ok see u around yeah?bubye!
p/s: listening to "if you dont wanna love me" again.. at this very moment i am typing this sentence:P(6.39pm).hahahahaha
p/s: listening to "if you dont wanna love me" again.. at this very moment i am typing this sentence:P(6.39pm).hahahahaha
memories
Midnight, not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory? She is smiling alone.
In the lamp light the whitherd leeves collect at my feet,
and the wind, begins to moan.
Memory, all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days, I was beautiful then.
I remember, the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.
Every street lamp seems to beet, a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and a street lamp gutters, and soon it will be morning.
Daylight, I must wait for the sun rise,
I must think of a new life, and I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes, tonight will be a memory too,
And a new day will begin.
Burnt out ends of smoky days, the stale cold smell of morning.
The street lamp dies, another night is over, another day is dawning.
Touch me, its so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory, of my days in the sun.
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.
Has the moon lost her memory? She is smiling alone.
In the lamp light the whitherd leeves collect at my feet,
and the wind, begins to moan.
Memory, all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days, I was beautiful then.
I remember, the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.
Every street lamp seems to beet, a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and a street lamp gutters, and soon it will be morning.
Daylight, I must wait for the sun rise,
I must think of a new life, and I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes, tonight will be a memory too,
And a new day will begin.
Burnt out ends of smoky days, the stale cold smell of morning.
The street lamp dies, another night is over, another day is dawning.
Touch me, its so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory, of my days in the sun.
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.
if you don't want to love me
When you lower me down,
So deep that I
I can't get out
And when you'r lost, lost and alone,
Yes, you'd think it was a last place,
You'd come back for more
If you don't want me to leave,
Then don't push me away,
Rather blow out the lights you can watch it all fade
But I'm going nowhere
I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing you're eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me
I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
Theres no space in my heart
When I don't wanna love you
And when there's no, no storm,
Then how can I feel the calm,
If theres nothin', nothin', nothin' left to lose,
Then what is this feeling that keeps on bringing me back to you,
So i'm gonna stay,
When you just wanna fight
And you're closin' your eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me,
Said i'm gonna stay
Oh yes I will,
You cant push me too far theres no place in my heart,
Where I dont wanna love you.
If you asked me to leave
And I walked away
We'd still be alone
And We'd still be afraid
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
'Cause I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing you're eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me
I'm gonna stay
All the tears that I've cried,
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me.
So deep that I
I can't get out
And when you'r lost, lost and alone,
Yes, you'd think it was a last place,
You'd come back for more
If you don't want me to leave,
Then don't push me away,
Rather blow out the lights you can watch it all fade
But I'm going nowhere
I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing you're eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me
I'm gonna stay
You can't push me too far
Theres no space in my heart
When I don't wanna love you
And when there's no, no storm,
Then how can I feel the calm,
If theres nothin', nothin', nothin' left to lose,
Then what is this feeling that keeps on bringing me back to you,
So i'm gonna stay,
When you just wanna fight
And you're closin' your eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me,
Said i'm gonna stay
Oh yes I will,
You cant push me too far theres no place in my heart,
Where I dont wanna love you.
If you asked me to leave
And I walked away
We'd still be alone
And We'd still be afraid
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
'Cause I'm gonna stay
When you just wanna fight
When you're closing you're eyes
'Cause you don't wanna love me
I'm gonna stay
All the tears that I've cried,
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me
I could leave them to dry
If you don't wanna love me.
Tuesday, 17 March 2009
class soon
gonna withdraw money to pass to jian, then go for class at 12-3pm..then class at 530-730, then rehearsal.
anyone coming for my show????rsvp to me asap k?for good seats, cz taman budaya is very the small!so if u want good seats, let me know, will reserve. thanx. see u there
anyone coming for my show????rsvp to me asap k?for good seats, cz taman budaya is very the small!so if u want good seats, let me know, will reserve. thanx. see u there
Thursday, 12 March 2009
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
photoshoot+preview
photoshoot again at 5pm...and preview again at 8pm. waste of time!!!!rather sit here and read my new "long lost book".hahah... wasn't lost, was there but never had the chance to read it, till yesterday when i discovered that those 3 books are super useful. teach me how to be a good actor, how to use my voice, imagination, how an actor should breathe, what should we do to analyze our character, how to switch from yourself and character, how to experiment with your character.. a lot la.. good good book!!!!:D.very useful for me now!!!!
oops
oh, i forgot i put up the guilinggao and tong sui pic up dy.hahahaahahah. and put it up again!nvmd.. "oops, i did it again".wtffffffff?
this is for you!!!!!
This blog is for you. I was not talking bout you in the previous blog, but you felt it, so here’s a blog, for you!!!!!!
Firstly, you do not have the right to say anything to me, or tell me what to do in my blog! IT’S MY BLOG. you have no right to tell me to NOT WRITE THIS and NOT WRITE THAT. No you do not have the right.
You got no right to accuse me of what happened before this. you got no rights to call me what you called me and say things to me. You have no right!
If you don’t love me anymore, why do you still care bout my life? Why are you still reading my blog? DON’T!!Nobody stopped you bout bitching bout me. I gave you the green light to bitch bout me. But you did not. You chose to be the good one. So that’s your decision. Go make a “hate-adelle” club or blog. I DON’T CARE!
Who is not leaving who alone? Ask yourself. Who is not moving on? Ask yourself again!!!
Who took who for granted? You do not get to accuse me and say I took you for granted. Cz you could not give me what I wanted!!you did not make me feel secure!!Hence the sulking 24/7!
You’re welcome for reminding you on why you dumped me!!
And I abused your emotions????And you did not want to be used anymore? When did I use you? you could not give me what I wanted. So I sulk!
It’s ok if you regret for saying sorry, cz apparently that word is a hard thing to say for you. Cz you know what, I’m not sorry for what I did too. Cz I did nothing to feel sorry!
I did not appreciate you? Did you appreciate me? you can accuse me, but have you ever asked yourself, did you appreciate me? Did you treat me like a lady? so what, you buy me flowers for valentines means you’re the world’s greatest bf? Excuse me, the world does not revolve around you alone!!
I did not mind you talking to other women said, go ahead. But you chose to NOT BE CLOSE TO OTHER WOMEN. That is not my problem!!
You see the truth? You know you treated me well? Well, if it makes you sleep well at night, ok, go ahead and believe that!
And you do not get to tell me who I am, what I see in myself. NO, YOU DO NOT GET TO SAY THAT. So don’t you dare tell me or ask me why cant I see myself!!!!
I wasted your one year of happiness and life? you wasted mine too. thanx for that!!from day one, you regretted even being with me. I could see it from every time we argued, you would bring this up.
I did not think of you as the biggest asshole, but you chose to think of that yourself. So its not my problem!
I did not ruin anything. You did!!you screwed up!
You can go on a bitching session bout adelle. I don’t care. But don’t tell me what to do or how or what. I don’t care. What I do or say is my business. I am not talking and putting up all this on fb am i?or on radio. It’s my blog. So mind your own business! and stop stalking my blog, or sms me. You want me to leave you alone? you leave me alone!!!you got to move on!!!!!don’t tell me, cz I have moved on!!!
Don’t perasan ok?I WASN’T ALKING ABOUT YOU!!!I USE MY LIFE EXPERIENCES TO MOVE ON. , BUT I WASN’T TALKING ABOUT YOU!!!!!IT JUST GOT ME THINKING. BUT I DON’T NEED TO JUSTIFY ANYTHING TO YOU.
You have your trust issues, you have your issues. Deal with it. It is not my problem anymore!!!!don’t ask me to leave you alone or forget you. Tell yourself that!!!cz I have moved on!!!!!!
I don’t need any more drama in my life.
So please do all of us a favor, stop sms ing me, stop stalking my blog, stop caring for me, and just live your life!!!!Whatever happens in my life is my problem!!!So don’t tell me what to do, and do us all a favor. Please!!!!!!!
You do not get to tell me or say or ask why I had to bring things up and why did it have to end this way. Ask yourself that!cz I did not bring anything up!
You said I hurt you a lot?and you did not?your words are enough to kill someone!!so yeah, DON’T ACCUSE PEOPLE OF HURTING YOU, CZ YOU HURT PEOPLE FIRST. YOU DON’T THINK BEFORE YOU BLURT THINGS OUT. AND I AM SORRY, BUT I DON’T WANNA HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU. I’VE HEARD ENOUGH. SO DON’T SAY ANYTHING TO ME, DON’T REPLY THIS BLOG, OR DON’T SMS ME!DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME AND EFFORT DEFENDING YOURSELF, CZ NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY OR TELL ME, I DON’T CARE AND IT DOESN’T MAKE A DIF IN MY LIFE!!!
Firstly, you do not have the right to say anything to me, or tell me what to do in my blog! IT’S MY BLOG. you have no right to tell me to NOT WRITE THIS and NOT WRITE THAT. No you do not have the right.
You got no right to accuse me of what happened before this. you got no rights to call me what you called me and say things to me. You have no right!
If you don’t love me anymore, why do you still care bout my life? Why are you still reading my blog? DON’T!!Nobody stopped you bout bitching bout me. I gave you the green light to bitch bout me. But you did not. You chose to be the good one. So that’s your decision. Go make a “hate-adelle” club or blog. I DON’T CARE!
Who is not leaving who alone? Ask yourself. Who is not moving on? Ask yourself again!!!
Who took who for granted? You do not get to accuse me and say I took you for granted. Cz you could not give me what I wanted!!you did not make me feel secure!!Hence the sulking 24/7!
You’re welcome for reminding you on why you dumped me!!
And I abused your emotions????And you did not want to be used anymore? When did I use you? you could not give me what I wanted. So I sulk!
It’s ok if you regret for saying sorry, cz apparently that word is a hard thing to say for you. Cz you know what, I’m not sorry for what I did too. Cz I did nothing to feel sorry!
I did not appreciate you? Did you appreciate me? you can accuse me, but have you ever asked yourself, did you appreciate me? Did you treat me like a lady? so what, you buy me flowers for valentines means you’re the world’s greatest bf? Excuse me, the world does not revolve around you alone!!
I did not mind you talking to other women said, go ahead. But you chose to NOT BE CLOSE TO OTHER WOMEN. That is not my problem!!
You see the truth? You know you treated me well? Well, if it makes you sleep well at night, ok, go ahead and believe that!
And you do not get to tell me who I am, what I see in myself. NO, YOU DO NOT GET TO SAY THAT. So don’t you dare tell me or ask me why cant I see myself!!!!
I wasted your one year of happiness and life? you wasted mine too. thanx for that!!from day one, you regretted even being with me. I could see it from every time we argued, you would bring this up.
I did not think of you as the biggest asshole, but you chose to think of that yourself. So its not my problem!
I did not ruin anything. You did!!you screwed up!
You can go on a bitching session bout adelle. I don’t care. But don’t tell me what to do or how or what. I don’t care. What I do or say is my business. I am not talking and putting up all this on fb am i?or on radio. It’s my blog. So mind your own business! and stop stalking my blog, or sms me. You want me to leave you alone? you leave me alone!!!you got to move on!!!!!don’t tell me, cz I have moved on!!!
Don’t perasan ok?I WASN’T ALKING ABOUT YOU!!!I USE MY LIFE EXPERIENCES TO MOVE ON. , BUT I WASN’T TALKING ABOUT YOU!!!!!IT JUST GOT ME THINKING. BUT I DON’T NEED TO JUSTIFY ANYTHING TO YOU.
You have your trust issues, you have your issues. Deal with it. It is not my problem anymore!!!!don’t ask me to leave you alone or forget you. Tell yourself that!!!cz I have moved on!!!!!!
I don’t need any more drama in my life.
So please do all of us a favor, stop sms ing me, stop stalking my blog, stop caring for me, and just live your life!!!!Whatever happens in my life is my problem!!!So don’t tell me what to do, and do us all a favor. Please!!!!!!!
You do not get to tell me or say or ask why I had to bring things up and why did it have to end this way. Ask yourself that!cz I did not bring anything up!
You said I hurt you a lot?and you did not?your words are enough to kill someone!!so yeah, DON’T ACCUSE PEOPLE OF HURTING YOU, CZ YOU HURT PEOPLE FIRST. YOU DON’T THINK BEFORE YOU BLURT THINGS OUT. AND I AM SORRY, BUT I DON’T WANNA HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU. I’VE HEARD ENOUGH. SO DON’T SAY ANYTHING TO ME, DON’T REPLY THIS BLOG, OR DON’T SMS ME!DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME AND EFFORT DEFENDING YOURSELF, CZ NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY OR TELL ME, I DON’T CARE AND IT DOESN’T MAKE A DIF IN MY LIFE!!!
promised pictures
here are the pictures i promised to upload. not going to elaborate.. so let the pictures speak:
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